Chutkus Catching Up

A Tired Little Thought:

2011-12-25T20:46:00.001+05:00

217thEntry:

“It amazes me how we manage to contradict ourselves so easily; how belief can be a euphemism for bigotry at times, because belief is no longer a personal belief in faith for the sake of survival, but an excuse for exploitation using that very sentimental mechanism that humanity has failed to function affectively ever since its creation. We find inferiority in others, failing to comprehend that they present to us a mirror image of ourselves, because that’s what we are, mirror images of each other reflecting the same flaws and perfections, capable of the same atrocities that we gasp in shame at, or of the kindness that we admire without reason. We are unto each other brothers and sisters, mothers and fathers, lovers and rivals, because we are all the same underneath, with red blood and a beating heart, our only differentiating factor being our minds and the realms those minds help us to journey into.

Before Pakistan, the Muslim minority in British India were being mercilessly harassed and neglected, and after Pakistan, we find ourselves in the roles of the British. The very reason we decided to become a state, and wished to defend to the death, the reason of equality irrespective of human classifications, is now the reason for our downfall and bigotry. This bigotry is further reflected in our fellow beings, the Israelis; those damn Jews kill the Palestinians as mercilessly as we kill each other because the other is too rich or too poor or too different. But that doesn’t mean we’re the same, it simply means we’re superior because we have a superior reason for this tyranny, but isn’t that their claim as well?

I pray that I never to have to see a day in my life where I live in complete contradiction of the very principles I preach, but a part of my heart, that little faint voice, is nodding its imaginary head in contradiction, reminding me that perhaps its too late for me to say such a thing, ‘but’, it reminds me, ‘its not too late to correct that thought’, and yet all of a sudden, that little faint voice is staring into the abyss like myself, because it finds its own little faint voice presenting contradictions to that thought too. So now, I suppose I’ll just pray to avoid contradictions instead.”

Merry Christmas,

and,

Happy Birthday Quaid.

I Love It When I’m Wrong:

2011-10-31T23:19:00.001+05:00

216th Entry:

“Misconception is the illegitimate child of doubt and anger, who could never get married because anger was too spontaneous and doubt was too suspicious of angers reasons for being so bloody spontaneous.

Misconceptions are something we all go through at some point in our lives, sometimes these misconceptions are stronger than our senses, and sometimes they’re not strong enough to avert us of the possibility of danger. I recently suffered a misconception, which was written in the last post, and today, it was gone, because he wasn’t like that today; he was his old self, he was kind and considerate and willing to listen to whatever my mother had to say, constantly giving a faint smile, easing the mood for everyone around. And I’m a silly teenage girl again and blah blah blah…

The point of this is, don’t start suspecting someone of anything until you’re completely sure (that means waiting for at least a week before jumping anywhere). Of course, that also doesn’t mean that you should rate someone as high as untainted perfection. That’s just the problem with life; not only does our own life carry its own problems, but everyone else has problems as well, and those transcend into our lives and become entangled in our problems somehow, because well, human beings can be quite messed up.

Personal Entry:

2011-10-30T17:41:00.001+05:00

215th Entry:

“I don’t understand people sometimes, I really don’t understand people, or maybe people don’t understand me and my life. I explained it to him in a note; I told him to not mind what my mother said because well, shes different, and what happened? I don’t know, he’s avoiding her, he’s not speaking to her as much, its as if he’s a afraid of her. Maybe I’ll talk to him later, tomorrow, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps… I don’t know, I’m just disappointed with him, he is my crush after all, you think your crush is the epitome of human perfection, but that’s life for you.

That’s the problem with society, people automatically assume that society is divine perfection, that it cannot be questioned, that it isn’t wrong in any manner. They never bother to think that society is a human concept, and hence like humans, is open to err at some point in time. Society assumes that isolation of the unwanted will rid them of the unwanted, because apparently society is well versed in human potential and worth, more well versed than God and that person they’re out casting. Why is it that this mentality is never called into question? Yes, insanity has its reasons for being questioned and out cast into the abyss, but why not society? What makes it so untouchable? That people follow it blindly? And don’t bring religion into this; religion is something you follow out of your own spiritual reasoning for the sake of your spiritual fulfillment, society on the other hand, is a completely different matter. It is something we are born into and told to follow because it seems right even though it could be wrong, religion is something we (well I at least) choose for ourselves to a certain extent. But I digress… society isn’t unquestionable, and its ethics of how to treat people are certainly NOT unquestionable. How mentally ill people have been treated in our society is not only shameful and out of line, but just stupid and insensitive.

What is the point of life is compassion has been forgotten? For it is compassion that connects us to other beings, and the being we connect to are the ones that make our life worth it.”

Life Changing…

2011-10-29T19:05:00.001+05:00

214th Entry:

“I understand that I haven’t been posting much for awhile , and that my love for blogspot is perhaps fading as tumblr becomes an easier distraction, but I assure you, ever since today, when my English teacher gave me, the argumentative essay writer, an argumentative essay to write, I was left disappointed with myself, and I am now determined to keep this little piece of myself alive, because that’s what it really is, a little piece of myself, a compilation of my mind and opinions, which should be kept alive, because what are we without our opinions? That’s right, zombies..

But the title isn’t related to today, its meant to be literal. My life is actually changing, well it changed, on September 22nd; I’ve started studying now, and I’m going to this tuition center, and the manager is totally cute (I can’t stop mentioning that by the way) , and my English teacher is totally cool and reminds me of my dad sometimes

So yeah, I may not be extremely active, not as active as I use to be, but I will revamp this place, I will start yapping again, and you must excuse me if my style of writing changes (whoever ‘you’ are stranger, you are welcome here, all strange people are), but today, I feel I must start yapping again.

So yup that’s it. If you want to keep updated about me, check my tumblr http://teenageodyssey.tumblr.com

Take care and *panda XxX’s* (its alright to cyber hug random people, yeah?).”

Album Review: Little Voice by Sara Bareilles

2011-10-05T19:28:00.001+05:00

213th Entry:

“Yes ladies and gentlemen, after reviewing her latest album, I’ve decided to review the album that brought her onto the radar. As usual, this review contains the feel/rhythm of each song, a word on the song (if necessary), and then a final word on the whole album.

Song: LOVE SONG.
Feel/Rhythm: funky/upbeat/old school. Rated: 4/5
Description: Even after all these years, the song still manages to maintain its splendid feel.

Song: VEGAS.
Feel/Rhythm: Bar style-old school/funky. Rated: 4/5
Description: I’ve loved this song from the first moment I heard it, its got everything, from her signature songwriting to a great rhythm.

Song: BOTTLE IT UP.
Feel/Rhythm: funky/bar style. Rated: 3.5/5
Description: A song about accepting your spouse as they are (I think).

Song: ONE SWEET LOVE.
Feel/Rhythm: acoustic/romantic. Rated: 4/5
Description: This song is written in a very simple but romantically raw manner, which makes it one of my very very few favourite love songs ever.

Song: COME ROUND SOON.
Feel/Rhythm: funky/bar style. Rated: 3.5/5
Description: A song about being in a bad relationship.

Song: MORNINGSIDE.
Feel/Rhythm: funky/bar style. Rated: 3.5/5
Description: A song about accepting your spouse as they are (I think).

Song: BETWEEN THE LINES.
Feel/Rhythm: slow/acoustic. Rated: 3/5
Description: A song about a break-up.

Song: LOVE ON THE ROCKS.
Feel/Rhythm: funky/bar style/upbeat. Rated: 3.5/5
Description: A song about a fling, this song is quite enjoyable!

Song: CITY.
Feel/Rhythm: slow/haunting/calming. Rated: 4/5
Description: I’ve listened to this countless times to go to sleep, theres just something about it, I can’t put my finger on it.

Song: MANY THE MILES.
Feel/Rhythm: upbeat/gospel/happy. Rated: 4/5
Description: .A song about finding happiness in a relationship, and life in general.

Song: FAIRYTALE.
Feel/Rhythm: upbeat/fun/happy. Rated: 4/5
Description: Theres more to life than marriage and men ladies. One of my favourite Sara songs ever.

Song: GRAVITY.
Feel/Rhythm: slow/reflective/acoustic. Rated: 4/5
Description: .A song about finding happiness in a relationship, and then having to let it go (I think).

OVERALL ALBUM RATING: 4.5/5

Why? Because I loved this album, completely, even more than Kaleidoscope Heart. Yes, a lot of songs have a similar style/rhythm, but the songwriting, the feel, its just great, its totally enjoyable and memorable. Yup, that’s all xD

I’m sorry I haven’t been posting much, will tell you soon why.

AN OPEN LETTER TO LUCY DOAN:

2011-09-16T19:31:00.001+05:00

212thEntry: This post was previously published here

“Dear Lucy,

As one of your many followers on formspring, there was once something you said that I came across one day, something that, well, got me ticked off, and due to your claiming to be an individual who enjoys intellectual conversations, I thought a long fancy rant was one reasonable way to express my opinion to you darling.

When asked about why you don’t believe in religion, you said it was because you thought the concept of religion is primitive. Long before that, you once said that you don’t believe in God because it’s like believing in the tooth fairy, it doesn’t make sense to believe in something that supposedly doesn’t exist.

As someone who is a believer in God, I don’t mind if you’re an Atheist, and I respect your beliefs to some extent, but when people (and by people I mean Atheist’s in your age group) like you start insulting religion, any religion, that’s when I have to call to question your own beliefs. I mean why do you guys have to be such, well, (and do excuse my language) jackasses all the time. Alright fine, you don’t believe in God, but do you have to disrespect the rest of us? Who do you think you are anyway? Seriously, how can say you’re a human rights activist when you consider yourself superior on the basis of belief, something you can’t even see but only feel; are you honestly going to judge or differentiate between people based on the fact whether or not they believe in religion? Because that’s just as dumb as judging or differentiating between people based solely on their sexual orientation.

You say religion is primitive, I say it’s human instinct, and human instinct is something that is and always will be there; go into any society at any point in history, and you’ll find that they too had a religion of some sort that they believed in. Just like love, religion is a natural human need, a need we all have to believe in something we don’t fully understand but still can believe in, even if there is no visual evidence of it’s existence. I understand why you would want to reject religion, because these days all religion has managed to do is to create more chasms between humanity, partially because it’s been hijacked by delinquents of cupidity and savagery. We see it everywhere, from Islam to Christianity to Judaism to etc; each religion has it’s own problems, which then explode further as each religion comes in contact with other faiths, beliefs and social systems. [And as a Muslim in Pakistan, I feel very well qualified to define religious intolerance and frustration]. –It’s almost like what sexual frustration is to some people; it’s confusing, it’s personal, it’s indefinable at times, but it’s just there, that anger and bewilderment about your exact position on the matter (please don’t turn that into a dirty joke). So yes, I can sympathise with you, but I still can’t understand why one would want to degrade another’s beliefs, I mean that is just asking for it, and you know that.

Religion, to me, is an extremely personal aspect, and yet at the same time, part of the reason religion is so exciting is because it’s a social aspect; a religious society, a society followers, can be feisty sometimes, but it can also be very inspiring, because here we are equal and united because of one belief.

I never use to fully believe in God when I was younger, and even now as I’m learning to embrace my religion, I’m learning to overcome those little hiccups I have about my religion by simply looking at Mecca; in Mecca you see thousands of people, of all races and nationalities; they do not speak each other’s language, and maybe don’t even understand each other’s customs, but as soon the azan (call for prayer) takes place, all the confusion is cleared as everybody lines up together, equally for prayer. My father’s own experience is one example of that: when my mother was pregnant with me, she was bleeding, and at that time my father was abroad in Mecca. He went to the Kabba for prayers on Friday, and he says that at very that moment, when he had an Arab standing on one side, and an African on the other, all praying to One God for different reasons, made him feel not just at one with God, but with the community, it just gave him a sense of hope and inner peace. And then he heard a voice of reassurance and came back and blah blah blah and I popped out, the point of the story is community. Religion is something that can cause conflict, but only because we create the conflict, (it doesn’t just come out of thin air because we believe); similarly, religion can be something very inspiring, inspiring enough to make us better human beings, to make us strive for the better, to innovate, to create, to love and overcome hate, and simply to give us hope. I’ve seen people who’ve made a real difference in my country and in the world who are very pious and credit their faith for inspiring them to do what they do; Abdul Sattar Edhi & Ansar Burney are both local examples of this. [Further examples of piously cool Muslims can be found here]

But philosophically speaking, religion serves a great purpose to us. It serves the purpose of finite belief in the infinite, which once understood to a certain extent and totally embraced can cause one to inspire to be something that they were too afraid to be before, and to deal with life personally and socially in a manner which would’ve been harder to grasp before. I can you give my example; when I say I have no one to fear but God, and no one to answer to but God, it gives this sense of fearlessness and valor I can’t get in any other way. My favourite verse from the Quran is: “On no soul doth Allah place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns.” (2:286) Reading that verse over and over again has helped me overcome suicidal thoughts, to better believe in God, and by doing so, better believe in my life, and be grateful for what I have. By believing in my religion, I feel I have started to become a better person. –But that’s just me, my 21^stcentury approach. But think about it, when you believe in a higher force, a force that will not put you on hold, will always be prepared to forgive, will always love you and give you your fair chance, then what do you have to fear? Religion can be beautiful in that sense, because it provides us with the reassurance that we can’t find in people, or are too afraid to find in people, and by doing so, we learn to live for people, to be compassionate in a manner that some of us can feel as spiritually rewarding; to find peace within ourselves when peace itself is absent in the world; to strive for a better society when society itself refuses to believe in anything but hatred; to have hope when hope was not possible to have.

From mothers with sick children, to children with sick mothers; from soldiers at war to the children of war; from a scientist to a labourer; if God is not a force to these people, then God is a concept; a concept that is in reach but at the same time distant enough for us to not fear another being or another being’s creation; a concept that is true enough for us to be part of a larger community whilst still maintaining a certain amount of individuality in our relationship with God. –If you were to say religion is primitive to the millions of followers of any one religion, you will get two things: fists and death threats, and people who will be inspired by your words to inspire you with their religion. Peace and hate exist within us, but God allows us to make peace and compassion more spiritually feasible and appealing than hate and greed.

So yes, I suppose what I’m trying to say in this somewhat repetitive, extremely long and to some extent incomplete rant is that could you please not be so inconsiderate to the rest of us on the matter of religion. I know that you’ll raise some questions and objections about religion, but I’d rather not prolong this anymore and simply tell you I love you, and I think it’s great that there are some kids my age out there who are opinionated and use their brain from time to time (for a change), and this isn’t some kind of attack on you or your own beliefs, but simply the result of the need of expression (because other Atheists have been getting on my nerves with similar statements).

Much love and *panda XxX’s*,

Mushba.”

Album Review: Ladyhawke by Ladyhawke.

2011-08-21T18:05:00.001+05:00

211th Entry:

“Yes ladies and gentlemen, I’m that brain dead these days, that all I can offer are album reviews. So heres another one:

*puts on critic’s glasses and gets all snooty* The review is given according to each track, its feel, and then a final word on the album as a whole.

Track: MAGIC
Feel/Rhythm: Hypnotizing/Offbeat. Rated: 3.5/5
“A track about a guy, which has somewhat of an epic feel.”

Track: MANIPULATING WOMAN.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat. Rated: 4/5
“A track about, well, a manipulating woman.”

Track: MY DELIRIUM.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Fun. Rated: 5/5
“An upbeat track, and one of her hits off the album, this track is one of my favourites.”

Track: BETTER THAN SUNDAY.
Feel/Rhythm: Reflective/Offbeat. Rated:4/5
“A reflective track possibly about a break-up.”

Track: ANOTHER RUNAWAY.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Fun. Rated: 4/5
“A track that’s just so fun to bob your head to. Easy listening.”

Track: LOVE DON’T LIVE HERE ANYMORE.
Feel/Rhythm: Offbeat. Rated:3.5/5
“A break-up track that makes the break-up enjoyable.”

Track: BACK OF THE VAN.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Offbeat. Rated: 4/5
“An upbeat track about one heck of a night with someone.”

Track: PARIS IS BURNING.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Fun. Rated:5/5
“This track is her most well-known track, about a fun night in Paris.”

Track: PROFESSIONAL SUICIDE.
Feel/Rhythm: Offbeat. Rated: 3.5/5
“A somewhat weird track that has something infectious about it. Extremely offbeat, the most off beat off of this album.”

Track: DUSK TILL DAWN.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Fun. Rated: 3.5/5
“A fun little track, not too upbeat, not too slow, and not too weird either.”

Track: OH MY.
Feel/Rhythm: Offbeat. Rated: 3.5/5
“This is the sort of stuff insomniacs listen to;—it has an almost hypnotizing quality.”

Track: CRAZY WORLD.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Offbeat. Rated: 4/5
“This tracks feel is similar to that of Back of the Van, and theres something very fun about it as well.”

Track: MORNING DREAMS.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Offbeat. Rated: 3.5/5
“Theres something very cool about this track, the way it goes and all.”

OVERALL ALBUM RATING: 4.5/5
Why? Because I simply loved this album. Ladyhawke certainly deserves more attention, and this album should’ve gotten much more acclaim, because its worth it. Though Ladyhawke is an electronica artist, shes not like the rest you hear these days, theres something different about her, which is probably why I like her, or else I’m not big on dance/electronica music. Whats different about her? The fact you can’t just listen to half of a track and move onto the other one, because her tracks aren’t the same all the way, they change; they take on different beats and aspects, all of which are welcome and enjoyable. When I downloaded this album, I thought I wouldn’t like the other tracks, but I was wrong, I simply love the entire album; all the tracks have something to offer, they’re the sort of tracks you can listen to at night, or when you’re in an eccentric mood, or simply when you want something to tap your feet to. So long story short, I didn’t just like this album, I enjoyed it, which is why I wouldn’t mind listening to it over and over again. Its an album I would recommend to the eclectic music listener, the kind of music lover who’s open to all genres, and not a hard core fan of one. Also, for people who are open to electronica music, but not fans of the hard core club/dance/electronica genre, this album is for you, because its not one hard core genre, its got a mix of all sorts of beats and rhythms, offering a middle ground the normal listener can enjoy.

So yup, that’s all. Take care, bye!

Album Review: Kaleidoscope Heart by Sara Bareilles

2011-08-21T18:04:00.001+05:00

210th Entry:

“So I thought I’d dust up this God forsaken blog of mine, and since my wisdom is limited to that of others in the form of quotes, the only other somewhat original contribution for this blog that I could come with, is an album review. So far, I’ve done only one (search for Alicia Keys). Today, I’m going to give you my opinion on Kaleidoscope Heart by Sara Bareilles, an album I’ve had sitting in my player for a while, and its time it was given its due.

*puts on critic’s glasses and gets all snooty* The review is given according to each track, its feel, and then a final word on the album as a whole.

Track: KING OF ANYTHING.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat and happy. Rated: 4/5
“This track was the biggest hit off the album (and I believe, unfortunately, the only hit) The track is typical Sara, with her story-telling style of composition, its an enjoyable track for a summer day. Yes, that’s the best way I can describe it in short.”

Track: KALEIDOSCOPE HEART.
Feel/Rhythm: Haunting Rated: 3.5/5
“This isn’t actually a track. Its simply a minute long introduction of sorts to the album, done in a haunting church choir style.”

Track: UNCHARTED.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat & happy Rated: 4/5
“This track is similar to King of Anything, centered around a story of sorts, told in Ms. Bareilles own way.”

Track: GONNA GET OVER YOU.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat & Happy. Rated: 4/5
“A break-up song everyone can sing along to, and most probably related to.”

Track: HOLD MY HEART.
Feel/Rhythm: Mellow/Reflective. Rated: 3.5/5
“A reflective track about a past relationship, and the insecurities we all go through.”

Track: SAY YOU’RE SORRY.
Feel/Rhythm: Mellow & Whimsical. Rated: 3.5/5
“A reflective break up song done in her signature style.”

Track: THE LIGHT.
Feel/Rhythm: Slow/Reflective. Rated: 3/5
“A track about insecurities and trusting your partner.”

Track: BASKET CASE.
Feel/Rhythm: Acoustic. Rated: 3.5/5
“A track about coming to terms about your spouse.”

Track: LET THE RAIN.
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Reflective. Rated: 3.5/5
“A track about the insecurities we have in life, and over coming them.”

Track: MACHINE GUN.
Feel/Rhythm: Reflective/Eccentric. Rated: 4/5
“A track about telling ones spouse to understand their flaws.”

Track: NOT ALONE.
Feel/Rhythm: Mysterious/Eccentric. Rated: 3.5/5
“A track open to individual interpretation (that means I didn’t fully understand it).”

Track: BREATHE AGAIN.
Feel/Rhythm: Slow/Reflective. Rated: 3/5
“A track about dealing with a difficult relationship (?).”

Track: BLUEBIRD.
Feel/Rhythm: Slow/Acoustic. Rated: 3.5/5
“A track possibly about dealing with a break-up.”

Track: SEND ME THE MOON.
Feel/Rhythm: Acoustic. Rated: 4/5
“A track possibly about self-reflection.”

Track: KING OF ANYTHING (Strings Version)
Feel/Rhythm: Upbeat/Fairytale Rated: 4.5/5
“A cute strings version of her album hit. It just lets your imagination go.”

Overall Album Rating: 4/5.
Why? Because theres no particular way to judge this album, and since I wasn’t familiar with her other albums, except for a few hits on radio, its even harder to describe this album. Yes, this album is full of slow lovey-dovey songs, but theres something about those songs, the way they’re written, a manner which is simple yet effective, in the way that everyone can relate to them, relate to the stories shes telling, which is rare to find in songwriting these days, and ‘tis a most credible merit. Though some songs and some of the music seem too similar to one another, I feel this is one of those transformation albums, an album released at a certain point of the artists life where he/she is going through some things which they can only express through their songs, and which may perhaps determine their later albums. Sara Bareilles’s music isn’t mainstream, nor is she herself a mainstream, which is why I love her so much. Shes not just different, but shes special, and we see that in her songwriting, in her albums, and hopefully, will continue to see that in her future albums.

Hope you enjoyed my rubbish review! See you next time!

THANK YOU NORWAY, Really, Thank You:

2011-08-02T18:57:00.001+05:00

209th Entry:

“As the Norway tragedy unfolded, I wasn’t alone in my eagerness to know who the attacker(s) were more than what exactly was happening. A great deal of people, from the slightly concerned in Pakistan, to the very concerned all over the world, were intently watching it unfold: reading the tickers; hearing the Norwegian representative’s say how international support against ‘terrorism’ was avid, and how pledges of support were coming in, along with criticism for not joining in on the War Against Terror; certain people were doing all this, simply to see whether or not those responsible were ‘Muslim’.

Conspiracy theorists a.k.a ‘expert analysts of terrorist networks’ were lining up for their interviews; primetime shows were preparing to do whole hour shows on the menace that is terrorism; and certain countries were pushing Norway to change their mind about entering their war as they gave little speeches of support in between. Then it happened; the pictures of turbans, beards and tanned skin were deleted from memory, as we found that the supposed lone attacker was not associated with Al-Qaeda, nor from Pakistan, nor wasn’t even a Muslim. Instead, we got a grown Caucasian man of right-wing (read: white-people extremist) Christian views with blonde hair and blue eyes proclaiming to bring upon Norway a revolution of sorts in order to avoid a Muslim takeover. And then a week later, instead of extensive analysis on terrorist networks and security collapses, and pledges of military aid and whatnot to Norway, we got nothing to talk about.

Everybody forgot about Norway, as if the tragedy never took place—you would’ve been lucky to even find any reports on the background of the attacker, or the victims even. And this quick little action by the international community and media got quite a few people (Muslim’s and even some humane non-Muslim’s) thinking: Why has everybody forgotten about Norway?

Weren’t those 76 lives worth it? Or was a bearded Afghani man who trained briefly in Pakistan worth more? Because it certainly seemed so: those who said they would stand shoulder-to-shoulder with the Norwegian government now stood 100 feet away, leaving the Norwegian’s to deal with the situation alone, as the primetime shows had nothing to talk about, and newspaper editors had nothing worth publishing to publish. But I’m not writing this post to simply highlight a fact a few have already highlighted, I’m writing this post to highlight something people have apparently not noticed: Norway’s behavior.

If such an event was to take place in any other country, with the same right-wing extremist Christian attacker, whose reason for attacking was the growing population of immigrants, you would’ve had the public expressing, and perhaps even attacking in some form or manner, the innocent immigrants; you would’ve had tightened checks at airports and whatnot of Muslim immigrants; you would’ve heard of sweeping raid’s and intelligence exchanges to track down terrorist networks. But instead, from Norway, you heard nothing: their public did not resent anger for the immigrant population, nor did their government vow to track down or tighten anything. All they did was something the rest of us should’ve been doing: paying our respects to the lives of those lost with the utmost sincerity and unity.

Norway’s actions have not only proven the statements my father had made several times before of their social superiority, but also instilled in me an idea of what you do during a national crisis; you don’t rob people, or moan on facebook of how all this bloody mourning has ruined your weekend, you do what is any humane human being should do, and that is show some compassion where and when it is needed, for not just others, but also your country. Norway’s civil action’s and behavior have given me a sense of gratitude that I wanted to express, and its taken me some 650-words to say it, but I’m saying it with all my heart: THANK YOU NORWAY.”

The Extremist In Us All.

2011-07-27T19:54:00.001+05:00

208th Entry:

“The recent Norwegian tragedy has shown a side of humanity we’d forgotten, the side that was oppressed and hidden: the extremist side in us all. Until now, the thought of an extremist was followed by the mental image of turbans, beard’s and brown skin, not by blonde hair & blue eyes. The thought that extremism was not limited to a certain creed or race hadn’t occurred what-so-ever to anybody: not the media, nor to the public in general. Every attack since 9/11 has supposedly been conducted by so-called ‘Muslim’s’, the thought of it being conducted by another entity of sorts totally escaped the general public perception, and so did the fact that human nature is made up of extremes.

Though most human extremes aren’t as insane as the ones we’ve come across in recent times; human extremes could be anything beyond or below normal; it could refer to your extreme dedication to a sport, field or cause, or to your lack of it. In this day and age, there are two sorts of extremes, the crazy I’ll-blow-you-all-up extreme, and the we-don’t-know-a-thing-about-ourselves extreme, like, dare I say, the Muslim’s for example: You have the crazy nut cases (ab)using the religion, and you have those who don’t practice Islam at all and yet are classified as Muslims…the ‘moderates’ as they’re called. And there’s your problem: these days, there’s no middle balance to bridge those two extremes, just these two isolated extremes that are at different ends of the spectrum. We are lacking a new breed, the breed that can represent to the rest of society the more truer version of that creed/caste/nationality. And its not just the Muslim’s that are lacking this breed; the Right-Wing Christian gunmen and the generally moderate Norwegian society is another example of two extremes with no middle balance to bridge them, or even if look at the Jews, you have the crazy Zionist’s, or the relatively non-Orthodox, or the Hindu’s with their nutcases and moderates, or even certain American’s, some so proud of their country they despise other races, some moderately proud, proving that extremism isn’t limited to a religion, but can apply to all religion’s and nationalities, and hence is a concept of human nature. And as is the case of all extremes, they all lack and middle balance to bridge them, to represent, understand and counter both sides to give you this almost hybrid breed that’s sane balance of the two extremes.

And that’s all she wrote folks.”

The God Factor

2011-07-27T19:53:00.001+05:00

207th Entry:

“My grudge with Atheists isn’t about why they believe in No God, but why some of them have to ridicule those who do believe in God so insensitively. To a great extent, I was an Atheist, because I held a grudge with God, and to some respects still do. The reason I do believe in God is because of 2 things:

1) God;

2) The Followers.

These stories passed down through word-of-mouth and then literature, of how the first followers of my religion were persecuted for simply wanting to believe, and how they persisted in their belief, inspires me to earn my belief, to not take for granted the religion I was born into, and actually develop a sense of respect for it, an understand of it, and persist in my belief for it, simply because so many others are striving to do the same.

Then of course there’s ‘the God factor’; I know that its hard to believe in God, but you have to, because there’s a fun in it. Atheists make the argument that God is a whimsical idea of childish fancy and doesn’t exist and is a waste of time, well to them it might seem so, but to me God is the companion of every child lying scared in bed whilst their parents fight: they’ll pray for betterment, and though it might or might not come, the child will develop a sense of hope and spirituality, and spirituality is just as important as anything else in order to maintain good health, which has been scientifically proven.

This God concept has provoked so many to be more humble, more kind and compassionate, more tolerant and grateful, and fearing and firm of what my come; if this God concept can provoke that, this amount of peace and understanding amongst followers, and provide a sense of enlightment they’ve been seeking, then I don’t care if God exists or not, I’m stilll going to believe in God, for myself, and because of others. And lets face it, sometimes there are things you can’t explain, or take too long to explain, and its just easier, and better even, to believe in God, and c’mon, go as far back in history as you want, you’ll always find people worshipping something or someone, proving religion is a basic human need.

So history, science and common sense, have been related to the idea of believing in God, so I’d like to think that maybe God isn’t the fairy-tale many people think.”

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN TING! ❤

2011-07-20T13:18:00.001+05:00

206th Entry:

“Dearly beloved, we have gather here today, to present to a darling soul, her presents from afar aflung (yes, that is now officially a phrase).

HAPPY

BIRHTDAY

YAN TING!!

I hope you have the best 18th birthday, surround by good cake, presents, lots of love, and most importantly, lots of *panda XxX’s*, like anybody should be on their birthday :)

You’re a really special person, smart, sweet, and adorable!! (hint: cheeks ^_^) We made contact (*star trek effects*) what, some 3 years ago I think, when I just started out with this little blog, and I’d like to think we’ve grown to be some sort of long-distance friends. I mean, we both like Green, so really, no need for anything else xD Jokes aside, I wish you the best in whatever you do, whether that be your studies, or other aspects of your life, and from the bottom of my heart, I thank you for being so good to me, from the honest messages, to (especially) your honesty. And its with that gratitude I wish you a happy birthday

I also hope you’ll like your birthday picture & video.

So yup, that’s it, gotta go do homework now ^^;

*panda XxX’s* ❤❤❤❤

It’s the Theory that Survives, NOT the Theorist.

2011-07-09T20:57:00.003+05:00

205th Entry:

“I’m against a monarchy to a great extent; one, you can’t have a democracy in a country of monarchy (hint: Britain), and two, it is a failed concept. Yes, before monarchs were required to lead a country, and an army into war, but now, none of that takes place, and hence limiting power not just to one family, but to one class, a class that makes up a fraction of the masses and hence has no understand of what effects and the masses, is simply redundant. –Though the respect and loyalty many countries have for their monarchs is admirable to some extent, questions must be raised—monarchy is not a heaven-sent right or order, it is a human concept, and the entire point of humanity is to practice and advance, leaving behind the unnecessary, and this includes the monarchy.

To give such significance to a person, monarch or president, is wrong, because then you end up spending millions on securing one life, where as those millions could be used to secure (in many ways) many lives. If anything, we should learn to give significance to concepts and principles, not to people who preach them.

Believe in your God, and don’t question your God’s words, but do question the words of the preacher interpreting them. Because its your God’s words that will be passed on through word-of-mouth and survive the generations, not the person preaching them.”

The Fame

2011-07-09T20:57:00.001+05:00

204thEntry:

“Fame: Money, fan’s, drugs & alcohol, and easy rides.

Nobody cares who Pythagoras was, but we do know his Theorem. People don’t think much of the name Bronte, until they have to read a novel by one of those amazing sisters for school. Shakespeare died hundreds of years ago, but his plays still continue to fascinate and inspire so many, and also remain the butt of many jokes and parodies (to sleep, or not to sleep that is the the question).

There was a time fame had a different meaning for people; when fame didn’t just mean fortune and recognition for the present, but a place in history; big or small, a place in history, your name mentioned somewhere for an achievement of yours, that was the epitome of fame, equivalent to immortality it was. That’s why people did things; the reason explorers faced multiple obstacles; the reason writers wrote as if their life depended on it; or musicians composed; or inventors invented, for ‘that’ fame, immortal fame; a place in history, with your name heard or repeated through generations to come.

We need to re-instill those values in us again; to do things for the good of all, for the sake of a mere mention in some kids history book and our name mentioned in somebody’s diary as they aspire to be like us, rather than money, because money was never the reason we did things; at a time, we did these amazing things because we wanted to, because we, as humans, feel the need to do something more than just follow our regular routines, because that’s what sets us apart from animals, that want to advance, for the sake of enlightment. We need to start advancing once more.”

I Keep Repeating Myself, I Know..

2011-07-09T20:56:00.001+05:00

203rdEntry:

“Anybody who follows trends does so because they’re too afraid to let others know they themselves are already outdated. After all, if trends come and go and are forgotten, what gives you the idea the people who follow them o so religiously won’t be forgotten themselves? Perhaps its a curse of being human; we’ve created this odd concept of society that is anything but functional, partially to satisfy our damned need to feel superior. Materialistic superiority is an intricate web of lies that can unravel at any point if people simply bother to argue to themselves the significance and functionality of this God forsaken concept.

The web has been woven by the vain, the insecure, and the those who know the art of emotional—deeply emotional—manipulation. What fascinates me the most is the fact that nobody has bothered to question it, never— yes, people have mocked it, but nobody has really properly and substantially argued it substantiality.

Perhaps that’s our biggest flaw yet, the fact we let so many tiny things, very significant things, happen right under our noses, and focus nothing but the insignificant; society itself is filled with so many ‘norm’s’ that, when you really think about it, aren’t normal at all, in fact, some are pedophilic, unjust and down-right wrong…but that’s another matter for another day.”

Karma

2011-07-09T20:54:00.001+05:00

202ndEntry:

“We are told to be good, and that we shall receive our reward by our Lord, but these days, every time one tries to be good, one ends up getting bamboozled,which always leads on to ask: “Why God? I’m doing as you said, but no good comes out of it”. We never get a reply, or maybe we’re asking too much from the Supreme Power to give us a diret reply; after all, if God could be direct, why would God bother with Holy Books?

I suppose rewards don’t necessarily mean something big, sometimes they mean something good in our lives in return for our good. That question of ungratefulness always wanders though, and that’s probably why Muslims are required to pray 5 times a day, so we have plenty of time to sit down and think why we are grateful to God that day, because when we really think about it, we always have something in our lives to be grateful for, whether it’s a good day, or our life itself, and that’s our reward for being good, we get good in return.—Karma, go figure…

THANK YOU GOD!”

The Difference Between Being Good & Doing Good:

2011-06-30T13:18:00.005+05:00

201st Entry:

“There were once four brothers, each with a strong sense of good. Three had outcast the fourth, because the fourth was one who did not bother with the disciplines they did:

The first brother became a writer who wrote masterpieces that promoted morality, and brought upon a revolution in his country, but not in the rest of the world, because the rest of the world neither spoke his language, nor could read and write.

The second brother became a great artist, whose art inspired all and brought on revolutions, but not everywhere, because there were people who could not see, and hence, could not see his art.

The third brother became a great musician whose music promoted peace, but in the rest of the world there were those who didn’t understand the language, nor could hear.

Then there was the fourth outcast brother who neither wrote about good, nor drew about morality, nor sang about peace, but only did good, and the whole world could understand him.”

Woman’s Worth

2011-06-30T13:18:00.003+05:00

200th Entry:

“No matter what I wear, or where I go, Yes means Yes, and NO means NO”—this is the iconic slogan that women’s rights activists have chanted since the early 80’s against rape. And as much as I love this catch slogan, I’m not exactly all for it. Though, yes, its true, the rapist is to blame, you can’t keep denying the fact that sometimes we provoke it with the way-too-low neck-lines, and way-too-short skirts. But I’m not going to write about fashion, I’m going to write about passion, and the lack of it in women.

Psychologists have time and again proven that such a risqué (and cheap) way of dressing is linked with a woman’s weak will, and that shows her submission to a man and her willingness to please him, and no matter how you try to say it, you dress like a whore because you feel good? Yes? And why do you feel good? Because men give you short-lived sexual attention when you do so, and that’s it.

This is an issue, and to ignore it is to ignore an integral part of human rights, or more specifically, women’s rights! The core of women’s rights is not just respect, equality and appreciation from others, but also self-respect and boldness and valor. The way you dress reflects not just your personality, but your mentality; a woman who focuses more what others (read: men) think shows a huge lack of self-respect and security. Women show never have to worry about how we dress and what’ll men about it, what we should worry about is how we can contribute to the world, and elevate our status, in the world. Its this insecure and submissive behavior that’s landed us in this mess to begin with, to continue it is to poison ourselves, and our daughters; a mother supposed to be a strong figure of dedication and motivation to her daughter, someone who leads by example, because its only by leading by example that our daughters will understand that its ok to forget about peer-pressure and boys.

So what if you don’t have a companion in your life? You’re telling me that you have a life, and this world to explore, and fame waiting to be gained, and history waiting to be made, and people waiting to be inspired, and all you care about is sexual intercourse??!!!!! Now that’s a depressing life—now if you’ll excuse me, there’s a world waiting for me.”

Lacking Insanity

2011-06-30T13:18:00.001+05:00

199th Entry:

“Insanity is an underrated quality, even though its existence is vibrant in the world. As we all know, it is a laughing matter for the majority of societies when one attempts to be good and work hard, which is perhaps why one has to be insane to be successful.

You have to be insane to want to cut someone open in order to save their life; you have to be insane to practice for hours on end simply to maintain perfection in a sport; you have to be insane to bring yourself to imagine multiple situations that best reflect society in order to write the masterpiece of your life. You see, a normal person can’t do these things simply because normalcy doesn’t allow one to push ones self forward and dedicate oneself that little extra bit to something, but insanity does. Insanity allow self-justification of situations that would be questioned and laughed at in normal society; insanity allows one to solve problems that normal people can’t, simply because normalcy doesn’t afford them a different point of view than that of the majority. Insanity, when within limits, is a quality; exceed those limits, however, and it’ll bring upon you your doom, perhaps that why its such an underrated quality in our world.”

Have A Whale Of A Time

2011-06-30T13:17:00.001+05:00

198th Entry:

“Japans whale-hunting, and annual dolphin slaughter are heavily criticized activities, with the main reason being that it is inhumane, and no matter how much you try to deny it, in its essence, it is truly inhumane to attach such a defenseless and majestic creature, so ruthlessly and without hesitation; it is not only inhumane, it is abnormal, to not show weakness nor hesitation at such a sight.

Human beings are better than that, better than ruthlessly killing these animals whose flesh nor any other part no longer hold any significance. We, as human beings, have been given the upper-hand in this world by God, because we are able to advance in thought and practice, which means creating traditions, and leaving some of them behind for the sake of advancement, or else the entire point of humanity becomes redundant, and what fun is life when we can’t come up with something new to do?”

Sexual Education.

2011-06-21T23:23:00.001+05:00

197th Entry:

“Sexual education has always been a debated, or rather neglected point in our society, but facts are facts, and the fact is it is every parent’s responsibility to educate their child about everything, especially sexual education. In a world where child abuse and molestation are becoming startlingly more common, it is the duty of every parent, and the right of every child, to inform their children of right and wrong, and the dangers abundant around them, and to us, the most biggest and most scarring dangers are those that involve our most private parts.

Though, obviously, there is no need to tell a 3-year-old about the process of reproduction, it is still that 3-year-olds right, and the duty of every parent, to introduce the child to the concepts of personal space and boundaries, boundaries which no one is allowed to invade. Another reason sexual education should be in the curriculum is because todays kids are out there; they’re at school, or online, and very vulnerable, not just to the wrong information, but to the wrong people, and in order for them to be protected, they need to know the facts of reproduction, the hormones that are causing a sudden change in their bodies and behavior, the emotional concept and connection of this, and most importantly, the consequences of intercourse, from pregnancy to Sexually Transmitted Diseases.

For those who do want to know how to exactly to explain to their child such, what to explain and when, heres a quick guide:

When your child is 3 or 4, (old enough to comprehend what exactly you’re saying to them), explain to them the concept of personal boundaries. If you want to know how to explain, try watching this video, or better yet, have your child watch with you, and explain to them what it meant.
When your child is 9, explain to them where babies come from, NOT how they get there. When they’re 11 [the age most children begin to start puberty], explain to them how the babies got there. If you’re not sure how, try using the Reproduction section from an encyclopedia, diagrams and what not.
When your child is 13 or 14, tell them about the changes in their bodies caused by the hormones, and the emotions they’ll feel. Also try to explain to them the difference between love, and love, (the former being what your daughters boyfriend will use to get into her pants, and the latter being what we feel at a certain stage of our life); this may see too early to explain such a matter to them, but trust me, once us teenagers reach 15, we will NOT care what you say, so better to explain this when you have our attention. ALSO, tell your child about Sexually Transmitted Diseases, from HIV/AIDS to syphilis to whatnot. Wikipedia might be of service here.

Remember, consequences are never more worse than when we’re never aware of them.

Notice

2011-06-18T00:06:00.001+05:00

196thEntry:

“I’ve changed things up abit, but not as much to my satisfactory as was the previous theme. O well. I’m afraid I can’t stay long, all I can say is that I’ll be on a hiatus for abit—not that anyone cares—but don’t fret my imaginary readers! I shall overcome my laziness in my studies, and carry it on into this blog, and bring to you arguments, thoughts and wonders that we can all marvel at together!

Hoozay!!

*panda XxX’s*

Matrimony

2011-06-09T20:41:00.001+05:00

195Entry:

“The institution of marriage is considered a very sacred one, for it is the holy union of 2 people in the eyes of God, and yet the union of 2 people of the same gender is as unholy as it gets. Lets retrace how this holy institution works:

From as far back as possible in human society, marriage was a sacred union, that announced to the world of a man’s claim upon his woman, and the beginning of their demon spawn. Then we ‘advanced’, and marriage became a means of maintaining of restoring ties between countries and families; or a means of economic fitness, which continues till today. But marriage itself has never been a holy and sacred union; apart from the above, infidelity thrives, along with the stupidest reasons for it; other sin’s are committed, which I’m not aware of , but am sure one off-color one will be in the headlines soon enough.

To me marriage is an institution where human loyalty, and all the emotions that go with it, are tested; where 2 people have come to such an understanding that they can truly spend the rest of their lives with each other; to deny that joy legally, is as inhumane as we can get, and as hypocritical as we can get…after all, whats the point of all this human rights hoo-haa if we’re not going to even bother abide by it ourselves.”

I See Lines; Is That Bad?

2011-05-21T21:05:00.001+05:00

194th Entry:

“The hardest thing about life is the blurring lines; the line between right and wrong; acceptable and too-much-to-bear; fair-&-decent and deceitful-&-greedy; all these lines, they blur more and more everyday, in some way for all of us, they blur because we forget the principles that make up those lines, or simply become immune to them; or maybe, there are people who exist only to blur perfectly clear lines, because its their job, or they simply don’t accept those principles. Lawyers blur lines by removing or exaggerating certain principles to a certain extent; we blur the lines the same way for ourselves when we’re too scared to accept something we did, or when we don’t want people to do certain things. –There are many lines that get blurred, that leave us simply moral-less at the end, and though you may not care for morals, and shrug them off as simply nothing but debateable rules, you yourself are blurring a line as you debate these points: the line between ‘save-your-own-fear’ and ‘stand-up-for-something-true-courage’. There are many examples of that case, but i’m tired, and honestly, what are you for?”

Its Never Really For Real

2011-05-21T20:32:00.001+05:00

193rd Entry:

“I watched a little show on the difference between Catholicism and Protestantism, and i just couldn’t help but recall, how the bloody battles between those of the same faith, and the abuse of power via justification through religion, resembled the current state of affairs for Muslims. —Which brings to mind the question: will we ever accept religion? The concept of religion is false, because the followers are false; for every one person who thoroughly believes and obeys his/her faith, there will be 10 who’ll use it only to abuse it, push their own agenda’s, and twist it in such a manner as to justify their own prejudices. So it just goes to prove, human nature, in its essence, is pure and raw brute hatred, and the human mind will never question it, or how it is justified, and when they do question it, its simply far to late, as always.

Those words by Bruce Courtenay ring in my head now, for i can see no other way of putting it:

“…Greed is always a mile ahead, Love is always trying to catch up, and compassion is just limping along trying to finish the race.”

This Is An Issue

2011-05-21T20:04:00.001+05:00

192nd Entry:

“Whether something is a particular sort of situation, or an issue, is determined by the rate of occurrence amongst a society, or across a number of societies.

Blackmailing and bullying amongst a family, can very much be considered an epidemic of sorts; husbands marrying their wives so they can later force them to ask for more ‘dowry’ from her family (and vice versa); families bothering their daughters—scratch that—more like blackmailing them with sob stories so she’ll give them more money by asking her husband constantly; betrayal amongst a family this is, and nothing else.

This constant greed within such a sacred institution of mankind must stop; a family is the most basic form of society known to us, and it is sacred because it is the biggest institution of love we know; to use it in such a manner as to victimise the compassion that accidentally exists for the existence of this institution is just downright wrong, and pain in my posterior; to have the only hope for humanity, mutual compassion and consideration for ones closest of kin, abused in the manner that ‘tis, is beyond disheartening and saddening for me, it angering—its angering that such a situation can exist and nobody notices it, irrespective of its prevalence amongst a number of societies, that nobody is raising a voice and addressing this as the problem that it is, is just so angering i can’t express it in words.”

Practice What You Preach

2011-05-07T00:29:00.001+05:00

191st Entry:

“People believe so much in the Quran, they believe in it without question…or so they say; its in the Quran that you do not kill, nor harm another human being or Animal, because they’re Allah’s creations; it says that if you see any wrong being done, at least say its wrong if you cannot stop it, but always do your utmost to stop it, because Allah loves only hard work and righteousness, and Allah knows whose intentions are pure and whose are false.

And yet, keeping all of that in mind, we still stay silent when we hear our neighbour beating his wife or child relentlessly; we stay silent when someone is killed in the name of honour; we stay silent when someone is raped; where is the unquestionable belief then? Where are the maulvi’s who lectured the boys and girls about dating and public affection and then got them arrested; or told the majority that educating women is against Islam? Why haven’t they called the police on the rapists, the beaters, the murderers? Surely staying silent must be equal to a sin, especially when you have all the reasons and evidence to raise your voice and do something.

Allah could’ve given your life to someone else, and let you be amongst those who die everyday, but Allah gave you life, and how have you spent it? you’re supposed to make yourself worthy of that life, not waste it making excuses for why you’re alive…”

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!!

2011-05-06T23:37:00.001+05:00

190thEntry: (his birthday was on the 29th of April, i’m just publishing this here for the sake of keeping a record)

“Today the world might be throwing a hoopla or two about Kate (i refuse to call her Katherine) & William’s wedding, but I have something better to celebrate: Jonathan’s birthday!!

Now, i understand me and Jonathan don’t know each other that well (and no, i’m not talking about the online buddies gap), but i feel we both share some very common interests: hating homework, hating homework, blogging, hating homework, eating, hating homework, Digimon, music, and did i mention hating homework? Either way you look at, irrespective of the fact that we’ve failed to stay in touch, a nice person for me is enough to make a big deal about their birthday, which i will dutifully do.

Jonathan, you’re 18, flooded with homework and the pressure to succeed, and on top of that, your birthdays been overshadowed by some very selfish royals, but chin up buddy, because you’ve got one thing a lot of people forget they have, a big smile, and lots of well-wishing friends, PLUS, a panda hugging maniac like myself…now don’t you feel better? But honestly, i wish you the best of luck with everything, i hope you get lots of presents, are surrounded always by the loving people, and, (AND!) i hope you like the video i made for you (links on fb…soooooon), and the drawing i traced for you. Wait, somethings missing…ah, yes:

Excuse me…i’m very enthusiastic about emoticons (O! fyi, the cat emoticons are courtesy Kao-Ani). Anyhooooooo…Happy Birthday Jonathan, enjoy yourself, you’re only 18 once, and in this depressing day and age, living this long is somewhat an achievement, and its an age of fearlessness and exploration, which i hope goes well for you :)

*panda XxX’s*”

I Belong

2011-04-27T13:10:00.001+05:00

189thEntry:

“Human society has always revolved around being part of a society, or a club, or an association, or a guild or league etc., because thats how humans function, we function by feeling superior and creating this circle of people which only we can penetrate, whether that be the chess/math club, or a sorority, or even a ‘gentleman’s club’; and it all makes sense to a great extent: i started reading the Quran’s translations, with commentary on the side, and in one bit of commentary about when Adam & Even were thrown down to earth as punishment, it said that when man was thrown down to earth to live with animals, man became somewhat of an animal him/herself too, and when you look at this, this pride of being in an exclusive league, its not just in us, but in animals too; from a male lion becoming the head of a pride, or a lioness being accepted by her fellow sisters, its an animal instinct to fit in, and to fit into a group of people which the majority cannot.

This instinct may seem vain or wrong even, but its in us, and you can’t deny it, because everybody does it, if not in real life, then in cyberspace: look at your facebook, the pages you like are an example, pages like ‘I’m Against Smoking’, or the pages of the products you use, or the school and class you belong to; even twitter’s become an exclusive sort of club, with the phrase ‘i tweet’ helping to give that tiny fraction of significance and pride they wouldn’t otherwise have.— I suppose thats just it, pride and significance is what exclusivity has to offer for the vain and arrogant, or the insecure and diffident, because it helps to give that geek in the back of your class whos always picked on a little bit of comfort and self-belief when s/he goes to the math club meeting, or goes online to their blog, or it gives that rich without-a-family-or-friend businessperson that bit of human significance they wouldn’t really feel or get unless they were in that club feeling important and needed amongst other humanly needy people.

Before you can solve any problem you need to understand it, and humanity is a hard thing to understand, but i think this gets us one step further to solving our problems, or i’d like to think so ;) ”

The Thillyar’s Are Gone, & So Is Moin Akthar

2011-04-27T13:09:00.001+05:00

188thEntry:

“Thillyars (say: thill-ee-ers; they’re birds, i don’t know what you call them in English), are birds that are a little smaller than pigeons, but round and nervous like them; i’ve never seen them up close, only when they’re nervously flying by in flocks, so i can’t further describe them, but what i can describe is the excitement i felt when i saw them flying by today.

I was up on the roof, watering the plants, walking about, when it happened: flocks of Thillyars , started passing me by, each flock ranging from 50-150, either in flocks of circular shape, or in long lines, at intervals of every 3-5 seconds. But it didn’t matter how they went, whether flying high or low, they all went in the same direction, north-east, a little bit more east than north, but its north-east either way. This all started when the sun had started to set, and it was just amazingly awe-inspiring watching them pass by, just flying by so fast, as if they were evacuating, running away from something, so fast and so soon without a single twitter of a word. There must’ve been more than 1000 that went by in that time; they came from over my horizon, and they left from over my urban horizon; i say my because if my height was more my horizon might’ve stretched on for longer to see them go. –A thought occurred in my head; i heard somewhere that animals know when a disaster, and they start, and i thought maybe thats why they’re leaving so quickly.

But their reason for leaving soon became clear, i’d like to think.—I came downstairs, took the quickest shower i ever took, and was ready to ask my father for the remote to watch E-Buzz when he told me: “Moin Akthar Died”. At first i was trying to place the face to the name, but when i did, a part of me just faded away, it just sank, irretrievable. Moin Akthar was one of people you didn’t think would die, at least not now, so soon. He brought people the joy that very few actors and comedians can, and was the best actor Pakistan ever produced, and anybody who understands Urdu will agree that he was one of best actors in the world. By the time it was primetime, most channels dropped his story, but i’ll never forget him, and his sudden death has made him my favourite actor, and i know he’ll live on forever, because a person that good, that hardworking, is hard to forget no matter how hard you try.

So as i assume his spirit left with the thilliyars, i hope people who saw him never forget him.

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Moin Akthar was born in Karachi on 24th December 1950, and started his career in 1966. His most memorable shows include Rosy, Loose Talk, Studio Daahi, Studio Poone Teen, amongst others. He was famed for his impersonation and amazing versatility. He was a heart patient, and he died in Karachi of a heart seizure on the 22nd of April 2011, leaving behind a widow, 3 daughters and 2 sons.

“If You’re Lucky Enough To Be Different, Don’t Ever Change”

2011-04-18T15:21:00.001+05:00

187thEntry:

“Opportunity lies in ones ability to exceed their potential and approach a situation from a different viewpoint, and the only way to approach things from a different viewpoint, is to be different yourself.

The potential of a child suffering from an eccentric disposition greatly increases if his family or environment provide for him/her a childhood that is anything but acceptably normal. Now, let us assume that this child is eccentric and different, but is still capable of differentiating the basic right from wrong, do you believe it possible for the child to contribute to society in a way no one else can? I thoroughly believe it is; since the child will be unable to fully associate with all that is socially normal, a different child is bound to think of matters differently, and it is only when we force our minds to exceed the mindset that follows the norms do we reach our potential to innovate where others failed, or simply where others forgot to innovate, leaving a flaw for us to find and fix. And this approach is never more true than in law, where most laws are manmade, and hence open to debate and reinvention until they are based solely on compassion and humanity for both the accused and the accuser.

And thats why i want to be a lawyer—thats why i’m going to be a lawyer, and you can bet i’m going to try as hard as hell to change the world…”

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the title is a quote by Taylor Swift…yes, i’m a Swiftie –_-

HIATUS

2011-03-29T00:02:00.001+05:00

186thEntry:

“Due to the violent nature of algebra, and

the bombardment of tests, i’m going on

hiatus until the middle of the new months

first week (be back around 10th April?).

Thank you for being caring enough to have

read this,

*PandaXxX’s*”

THE DUBAI WORLD CUP 2011 NIPPON!

2011-03-28T20:40:00.001+05:00

185th Entry.

“On the 26th of March 2011, the richest horse race in the world took place—yes, the Dubai World Cup, with 8 races with an average prize money of US$ 2 million, and the main cup race itself worth US$ 6 million, was a spectacle, though with its flaws.

To start with, the commentators for the past 2 years or so have been pathetic, absolutely pathetic—just because they’re British does not mean that their cockney accents are classy, alright! & the opening ceremony was humbling enough, to say the least…more of a Dubai Tourism Ad. But, that doesn’t matter, because at the end of the day, it was all about the horses, and damn were they cute! ^_^

Each race ended nose to nose or a length apart, with Godolphin, the organisation owned by Sheikh Mohammad Bin Rashid Al-Makhtoum (bin Rashid= son of Rashid; Al-Makhtoum=his tribe), the vice president and ruler of Dubai, and the man behind the Dubai World Cup, taking about 4 races, a welcome result compared with 0 they took last year.

What am i talking about? GET TO THE POINT! who won? Ladies & Gentlemen, in an emotionally shaking and heart-breaking win, the JAPANESE horse, Victoire Pisa, ridden by Mirco Demuro, won the cup!!!!! Not only that, it was a Japanese 1-2 (1st position went to a Japanese horse, 2nd position went to a Japanese horse). The race was so lovely, Demuro (an Italian, of course) rode Victoire Pisa from the back of the pack to the front in the final 400-300 m (the cup itself is 2,000m), and led home Transcend, who was leading the pack at the time.

The jockeys speech was very emotional, and went something like:

“..When i woke up today, i wanted to give the people of Japan something, i wanted to give them the Dubai World Cup—I love you Japan, thank you so much; ciao mama….”

I still remember someone shouting Nippon! in the background as the team accepted the cup.—I don’t expect this event to cure Japan of their troubles, but i certainly hope that’ll it’ll raise their spirits. *Help Japan*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHI RU!!!

2011-03-24T14:33:00.001+05:00

184thEntry:

“Yes, today is yet another auspicious occasion, a special occasion, because today was when darling Zhi Ru made her grand entrance into the world, as an adorable little baby :3 Now you’re 18, you’re making headway in the world, and i know you’re going to do some great things in your life :)

Today, on your birthday Zhi Ru, i don’t have much to offer, except a video i recorded this morning, and a drawing i just traced of you on photoshop. I hope that today, and everyday from now on, brings a great deal of luck, and blessings and just lots of love for you; that you never have to face too many difficulties in your life, and you always view everyday as a fresh new opportunity :)

And so, from the bottom of my squeaky-voiced heart, i wish you a….

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

traced drawing:

Video>> http://birthdaybash.tumblr.com/post/4060041035/happy-birthday-zhi-ru

I hope you enjoy this day thoroughly! Happy Birthday! :D

*panda XxX’s*

Japan Needs Our Help

2011-03-17T12:37:00.001+05:00

183rd Entry

At least 3600 people are dead.

Half a million homeless.

About 80,000 people are missing!

It doesn’t matter how advanced or rich you think they are, or how much you hate their whaling, they’re human beings, and when another is in trouble, in such unimaginable trouble, we do what we would want others to do for us, we help as much as we, in any way we can.

Another Epiphany…

2011-03-17T12:35:00.001+05:00

182nd Entry:

“Savagery is in human nature, to some extent, it is the pinnacle of human nature, having been the driving force behind our endeavours to succeed at war, to divide society, to make more money, & to rule; so this brings to mind the question, since all the phases and sections of society have been covered by savagery , as mentioned above, what contribution and place does religion really have? I had an epiphany about it, and looking at religion, at all faiths, they all say the same thing: Be kind and humane, abstain from immoral acts, be just and true; basically, give up and forget your savage nature — religion tells us to improve, to advance, which is what we’ve always strived to do, and its what sets us apart from animals and gives us the upper-hand on animals, and perhaps each other. Could it be then, if you think about it, that the real human nature to advance is so powerful, that it has translated into savagery? Maybe, just maybe that’s it, but that’s a question for another day.

*Panda XxX’s*.”

ⒽⒺⓁⓅ ⒿⒶⓅⒶⓃ

2011-03-12T19:16:00.001+05:00

181stEntry:

“You’d have to be a pretty heartless person if you don’t care for the Japanese earthquake, the earthquake that triggered a tsunami that went all around the pacific; i say this because its impossible to have NOT hear about this, even if you live under an imaginary rock.

Recently, their nuclear plant suffered an explosion, and so far, in Sendai, 200-300 bodies have been found, whilst in another coastal town where the tsunami hit, 300-400 bodies have been found. Japan, the country that is by far one of the most developed in our time, is now at a stand still, suffering from multiple problems, from loss of life to power outages to extreme cold to rescue work that is going to take quite a while. Children have been left without parents, families have been separated and destroyed; homes have been destroyed.

This 8.9 magnitude earthquake was the worst in Japan’s history since they started keeping record of earth quakes, and many experts are calling this the earthquake of a life time, literally; such a powerful earthquake, such intense movement of the plates, only happens once every 70-80 years, according to some experts. Though Japan did cope with the earthquake, its the tsunami it triggered that has caused them this heartbreaking, unimaginable damage, and irrespective of how advanced the country is, the Prime Minsiter himself has said that they need help from outside.

So in the words of the Beatles, COME TOGETHER, RIGHT NOW, OVER ME..

Your best bet is CNN’s Impact site . The entire purpose of the site is to collect links to various organisations that are involved in Japan’s relief efforts.

Please help…remember, your life doesn’t have any value until you learn value another’s life.

I Don’t Have Anything Else To Say!

2011-02-26T19:45:00.001+05:00

180th Entry:

“ Its easy to be bad, to commit to nothing but savagery, but its hard being good, to commit to another instead of yourself. And yet, as often times as people may portray themselves as the choosers of all that is tough, they seem to stick to the easy and low.

I’ve always advocated good behaviour— humane behaviour, even though i’m still learning to fully adapt to it. It makes me wonder, why do we need to teach our kids that being good will get you chocolate? Shouldn’t the feeling itself be a reward? I know that having free will means that we are prone to the forbidden, to the bad, but why is it so hard to find someone with a habit of being good without expecting anything in return?

People look at life differently, each with their own presumption of happiness, but the debate still stands, which is the right presumption? What exactly is right? There are many a times when the line between wrong and right is strongly blurred—watch Boston Legal and you’ll get what i mean. This blurring doesn’t have to mean a decaying sense of righteousness, it can simply mean that reality has presented us with one hell of an argument. So what to do in such a case? How to un-bewilder yourself? Well, i would recommend turning to whichever Holy Book you have, or if you’re the atheist type, simply remember back to your childhood, and remember what you were told about right and wrong; those very basic’s, like its wrong to hurt a person, and important to say you’re sorry, and mean it! Or its compulsory to be thankful in all situations, and be kind in all situations, because that is the humane thing to do, and it will make us happy; but, you ask, how can you be so sure it will make you happy? What if your happiness is described by something else? Well, after years of consideration, very thorough consideration mind you, i’ve come to the conclusion that money, pot and what not never work, no matter how hard you try, for God’s greatest gift to mankind is Love, which basically means each other, and if you defy what has been assigned to you by God, well, it simply won’t work…love will prevail (so back off my buddies homophobes :P )

And here we are, back to asking the question of what is happiness? The absolute right definition of happiness? The definition that will work for every single individual on this planet without fail. The answer? Just think about love, i mean really think about it…think about how you loving others made you feel, your family, friends, etc.; think about how when you were a kid, and when you shared, what a kick you got out of it, not to mention a friend. Humanity cannot survive without each other, and by jolly if we can reproduce like pigeons and bunnies with the argument of religion and survival, then we can certainly be kind kind with the same argument of religion and survival, though its not entirely the same as the former, for this one is a bit more special.”

The Karachi Vintage Car Show!

2011-02-26T19:35:00.001+05:00

179th Entry:

“I’m posting the pictures of the Karachi Vintage Car Show we went to on the 12th of February, and here the pictures of the car (and some en route to the show). It took us centuries to get there, because we didn’t know where the Forum was…after asking at least 8 people, my dad spotted this ~~cute~~ middle aged guy who owned a new version of the Mini Cooper (va va voom honey!), and he, of course being a car enthusiast, gave us the right directions.

I’m too lazy to type out the car names, but i’ll just give you a quick over view of the cars you can expect to spot: Roll’s Royce, Mini Cooper ‘60’s model’s, Cadillac, BMW, Jaguar E-Type, Mustang…etc. And the last picture is of a security dog i thought was adorable :3

Enjoy!

CLICK TO SEE ALUBUM!!

Sorry you have to go a album…i thought it was going to show all the photos here, but it isn’t >_< :(

The Make Up Entry

2011-02-26T13:20:00.001+05:00

178thEntry:

“I’m terribly sorry, whoever you are stranger who bothers to read my God forsaken blog, for my absence. My tutor said he was going to take my text of the entire book 1 Mathematics, so i’d been offline since the 11th of February, but yesterday he said he’s going to delay the exam till next sunday, because this sunday he has his own exam. So either way, i’m going to make up for my absence with this entry, in which i am going to post one of my favourite songs of moments, and the CUTEST VIDEO IN THE WORLD, well, music video at least :D

WHITE KNUCKLES

OK GO

Be Human, It Works

2011-02-07T12:24:00.001+05:00

177thEntry:

“Everything must have a concept in order for it to work; like a math formula, it must equal to something, or else there’s no point in it; or else it won’t work as it should, which is the right way.

Wealth, for example, must be for luxury, and luxury for comfort; to seek wealth for showing off simply doesn’t make any sense, nor does it mean you earned your wealth, for anybody who earns their wealth, very knows that luxury=comfort, and anything else is downright silly and stupid. Also, comfort should never be pre-defined for you by someone else, you should have your own definition of comfort, whether that be a big mansion, or a family dinner, you should a perfect (and human) idea of it in your head.

Remember what Tyra Banks says: “Perfect is Boring, Human is Beautiful”, so be as human as you can be in matters of wealth, or else it’ll slip right out of your hands, just like your sanity, for wealth is a sort of power, and power is always intoxicating, sometimes so intoxicating, that you have no idea where your going with it, and what’s the fun in having money if you don’t know what to do with it? Being human, thinking of others before ourselves, provides us with the luxury of direction and discretion, without it, its hard to tell black from blue (hint: lady gaga), and lets face it, we all want to enjoy as many luxuries as we can.”

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN FU!!

2011-01-25T19:09:00.001+05:00

176thEntry:
“ Dearest all, today is another day of speciality and enjoyment, for today, is Jin Fu’s (adam’s >_>) birthday!
YEAHHH!!! –Sorry…so…Adam, in honour of that, i believe a little speech should be given: It has been a lovely pleasure being part of your life in this odd way; though we haven’t ‘talked’ in a while, we’ve had our good times, and fashionably bad times, but all in all, its been something. Today also marks an anniversary of utter confidence, which me a heart attack, but moving along. You’re 18, you’re all beefy and cute and smart, you’re one of the most determined people i’ve had the pleasure of being acquainted with, and i see so many possibilities for you.
I hope, today, on your special day, you have the greatest fun ever (for this year at least); that you are surrounded by love always; that you never have to face any unnecessary hardships; that you enjoy your life every single moment….so yes…

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

JIN FU!!

Heres your digital art, well, its not really art because i traced your photo O_O…anyhoo, i hope you like it:

& the link to the video…you might want to get ready for this one:
http://birthdaybash.tumblr.com/post/2924257555/happy-birthday-jin-fu

Justice Is Served

2011-01-23T22:59:00.003+05:00

175th Entry:

“The concept of justice is always challengeable, for each concept differs at some point in some way, rather than existing universally, and hence, it becomes prone to question.

It is also challengeable because it is a human concept, and each law is man-made, irrespective of how much you claim your have integrated your faiths principles into it, for, just like the concept of justice, faith is also questionable, because of the infinite interpretations of it.

I can speak sincerely about my belief of how each law should be debated and implemented on the basis of humanity and compassion, but that won’t count as much coming from someone who believes in the death penalty, will it?

We will always make mistakes, we will always be confused by the circumstances of certain people and institutions, and there will always be room for question, but one thing that is certain, is the clear line that exists between everything, from right to wrong; from over to under; from reliable to unreliable; there is a line between everything, and that line is our steadiest foundation and guide for whatever we may be planning.”

Its A Thought

2011-01-23T22:59:00.001+05:00

174th Entry:

“Splitting an atom can produce enough energy to kill, destroy and disintegrate everything around it, in some way, somehow, and human’s have developed this method. –When you really think about it, the world is huge, with situation’s where people are singing and dancing, or where people are starving and dying of preventable causes, and the concepts of greed and selfishness, whilst keeping the above statements in mind, become pointless, for what are you going to do in the world, if it isn’t for the world? Even fame can’t be obtained if others don’t pay attention to you, if you don’t do something for them to do so to begin with. So, hence, narcissism becomes pointless.

The biggest achievement, personal achievement, for a person, i feel, is when they put another being in front of themselves, and decide to contribute to that persons life without pondering about the material that’ll be returned. And its people like that who actually get somewhere in life, get something in life, because they’re not thinking about either when conducting their lives, because they don’t care for anything but the principles they set for themselves, for the simple goals they want to achieve.

If you want to make your place in the world, you have to give damn for the world, or else don’t bother.”

BFF’s

2011-01-23T22:58:00.003+05:00

173rdEntry:

“Friendships are forged on the basis of compatibility and attractiveness; they are relationships beings like us, with social dispositions, benefit from, beginning with mental and intellectual stimulation we seldom notice, to material benefits everyone notices. A friendship, in its essence, is a very sacred and beautiful thing, simply because of the memories you forge, those funny, moving and special memoires that are quintessential with friendships, and friendships alone.

They are our 2nd most basic and important interaction, right after our family relations, teaching us the ability to judge, compare, avoid, respect, and love people from different angles, enhancing our ability to deal with the world.

Even the lone wolf needs a companion, be it the forest, the wind, or the moon it howls to.”

Right According To Plan

2011-01-23T22:58:00.001+05:00

172nd Entry:

“ I was watching ‘How I Met Your Mother’ a few days ago, and i have to say it was quite a…helpful episode. When the protagonist, Ted, is discussing with his friends about how he can’t make it as an architect, how being an architect is supposed to be ‘the plan’, his friend Lily offers some words of wisdom, that went a little like: Life isn’t supposed to go according to plan, because the world doesn’t care about your plan, so its going to push to places you don’t think fitting, until that is, you take those leaps to the other side, to realise that the world had a plan for you all along.

I think leaps of faith are more trustworthy than luck; there’s where stand, and the chasm in between to where you could stand, so it more surer than most things in our lives, its more surer than luck, because at least in leaps of faith, you have an idea of what you’re getting, which—and i think we can all agree on this—is nice advantage to have in life.”

Notice:

2011-01-15T00:11:00.001+05:00

171st entry:

“ Hi all! I’m sorry i haven’t been much, i’ve been trying to be all disciplined, and this regime includes not using the laptop or net very often. I need to focus on my studies, and well, i’ve been a bit dried up. I think i’ll start keeping a little notebook as a way to keep my drafts. But even online i’m too lazy…one word: TUMBLR…its the most interesting thing for me since this, and i’m always caught up with it, partially because i’ve taken to drawing on the computer, and have a blog for all my monster creations http://violentpandahiccups.tumblr.com :3 Then theres my main tumblr, http://teenageodyssey.tumblr.com …yes, basically i’m saying check out tumblr, sign up, and follow me :3

Anyhoo….

Dear Blogger, i love you, you know i do, you were my first blogging experience and the wild and pathetic writer in me will always need you, because tumblr is just tumblr, its a visual place full of pictures and art, not a tolerance for long posts like you. I promise to try my very best in maintaining this blog (and reviving others), even if nobody reads or cares, you’re my baby :3

Panda XxX’s…”

Ya Allah

2011-01-02T11:38:00.001+05:00

170th Entry:

“I see the name everywhere, written in various styles by the most pious minds. Its mentioned everywhere in every sense, from the everyday to the utmost earnest. I feel something when i hear it, something i know i should feel and hence force myself to do so, but still wonder why i can’t feel this sense of awe a little bit more naturally. The name is Allah, the first and most preferred name of the God Muslims believe in. For quite a while now, i’ve been having this thought in my mind, of who is this Allah? This phenomena that has compelled, humbled, moved and whatnot so many in countless ways. I know Allah is God, a powerful force, not a he or she, but this force that has created every single thing, from people to animals to earth to our feelings and thoughts. Allah knows everything, hears everything, and rules everything, and is always merciful, just, and loving. Allah is so loving, that Allah has presented us beings with a mother, stating that Allah’s love is equal to that of 72 mothers, and that a mother is the closest representation we’ll have of Allah’s love on earth, and hence why mothers should always be held in the utmost highest esteem.

Its things like that which move me to believe in Allah, to say, ok, maybe this isn’t such a bad idea, that its worth believing in. Not to say there is something in particular that throws me off about Allah, i just can’t explain it, this feeling, this need of an explanation and justification of who, where, & why Allah exists. Maybe its the times, so depressing and down, or maybe the times for our faith, or maybe its just me, who fails to see certain things, who refuses to feel certain ways.

There are 99 names of Allah known to us Muslims, and my favourite is Al-Ghaffar, or The Forgiver. In my book it says, one who repeats this name will be forgiven of all his/her sins. I’m not afraid of hell or heaven, i’m simply afraid of what i’ve done, and thats where Allah comes in. I may have my struggles with life and with Allah, but i Allah is whom i turn to when i’m scared, every single time. Suitably, at the end of that very book i mentioned, it says: “Allah has said: Pray To Me, & I Will Answer You”.

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P.S.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Life Is… :)

2010-12-19T14:05:00.001+05:00

169th Entry:

“Somebody very very very close to in blood relation said to me at dinner

tonight: “You have a very sad life, because you find joy in the little things in

life”. To him i’ll write here in response what i was too hesitant to say there and

then : Life is all about the little things.

The whole concept of life, of God, is to be grateful for the little things you

have; from that person who makes you laugh when no one else can, to the

opportunities you have that you don’t realise until you see someone else

without them. Your family, your friends, your home , if you have any of these

little things in your life, then you have a life, because the money, the material,

it’ll come and go, it’ll burn and rot, but the memories you have with others,

with the people who helped you to become what you are, that’ll stay with

you forever, and that is what makes up your life, in its essence, that is life.

So the next time someone belittles you, don’t get sad about it, just remember

what you have, and smile about it please, because we need more people to

smile in this world :) ”

What’s Your Faith To You?

2010-12-14T23:31:00.001+05:00

168thEntry:

“Faith is an interesting concept to me:

My father sometimes jokes of how we were born Muslim by mistake, and before you go calling my baba an infidel, (i’ll punch you if you call him anything), he’s implying quite the opposite; my family isn’t very religious, and i started praying and learning about my faith but only a year ago, so for us, being Muslim is only a designation that became ours from the moment we were born into our families, and families went through the same thing. And so, being someone who never chose Islam, and doesn’t think much of it but simply my faith, its something of intrigue for me when i hear of people who have chosen Islam, who seemed to find a little something more in it than anything else.

Statistics have shown that one of the reasons for the sharp rise in Muslim’s in recent year’s is not just because the original Muslim’s are making alot of babies, but also because a lot of people are converting to Islam, and chances are 9/11 may have something to do with it. Ever since 9/11, not all Westerner’s have quick to go crazy about certain matters, including Islam; this has led to many wanting to know more about Islam, and that has led to many converting to Islam.

So, for someone like me, it makes me wonder, what is Islam to them? It can’t be the same thing for the both us; i’m someone who was born into it, something that was given to me without my knowing or choosing, so to me, fasting and praying and this and that, its all normal, its what i grew up with, its something i seldom bother to cherish, whilst for a convert, what must it be like for them? They must cherish it, especially if they’re from the West, they must treat it just that tiny bit more special than us, they must feel that tiny bit more enlightened than us, and they must’ve overcome their tiny prejudices & misunderstandings against it that most from the West have. They can do it, they can understand something we never bother to, and maybe thats why Islam is in the position where it is, a religion for terrorists.—My dad was right, you gotta ALWAYA work hard, and you can’t run away from it, not even when it comes to your faith, but its just hard work for me because i can’t see it in any other light; whats your faith to you? leave comments in tagboard please :)

Now if you’ll excuse me, i need to go pray my Zuhr (afternoon prayers)”

Love…Looove…Love, Love, Love Lovve

2010-11-24T21:48:00.001+05:00

167thEntry:

“The heart is the not a poetic concept because some Godforsaken fool connected it to love because of its fragility, but because it is the biggest symbol of unity shared between us living beings; irrespective of our race, religion, or even species, the heartbeat is within us all; it is truly really the reason we live, and the beat is the single most beautiful example of that, my heart beating with the same speed and precision as yours, maybe a few milliseconds off.

So, to say its a symbol of love is somewhat false; to say it is a symbol of unity, a reason for us to put our differences aside, is true. Love isn’t because of the heart, its because we acknowledged the fact that the heart unites us as one that love comes in itself.

If you think about it, it doesn’t matter how many explanations you give about love, about how it originates or what causes it in the first place, or how it continues to thrive over a period of time; love is honestly a proof that God exists, because its something you can’t explain to someone else…a situation, a relationship may explain love to you, but you can’t put it into the right words for someone else, they have to experience it on their own. And, its a good thing, it doesn’t do any harm (unless your a serial killer), its a good feeling that isn’t a sin, but a blessing; so, if we keep this all in mind, then you have accept the fact that this is a miracle from God, a gift to us, a blessing that we always have, thats as sweet as Heaven.”

Redefinition

2010-11-24T21:47:00.001+05:00

166thEntry:

“Today i caught a little bit of ‘Ratatouille’ , remember that film? The wannabe chef rat? Well, a scene, one scene that i feel i missed or can’t recall from the last time i watched it, has made it an absolute favourite of mine from now on. The scene is when Ego the food critic (voiced by the legendary Peter O’ Toole) has tasted our rodent friends Ratatouille (a dish of stewed vegetables, originally from southern France, usually consisting of tomatoes, onions, peppers, eggplant, and zucchini cooked slowly in olive oil) , and is writing his review after finding out the chef was a rat. Perhaps it was the fine narration by the brilliant actor, or maybe it was the profound words itself, but whoever wrote that narration is a blessed soul, a gifted soul, for when i heard it, i was reminded of what words are capable of, of why i decided to pursue these words, to try and reach that level, to begin with.

Mankind has created many things, many fields and crafts. Crafts such as the arts: acting, singing, painting, sculpting, writing, composition. These are crafts which have inspired many a souls, and some of these souls have been so inspired, that they’ve redefined their fields. Writing is one such field, constantly recreated, redefined, readjusted, restructured and whatnot by many people, and it will continue to be so over the years.

If it can be said, love is the essence of mankind, for it is what we give each other that keeps us going, and in this case, in the case of inspiration, it is the same thing. Emily Bronte’s Wuthering Heights is one such example; the book is the reason i write anything at all, and though my inspiring another being is a far cry from Ms. Bronte’s brilliance, i hope to at least serve this blogs purpose by giving my ideas and thoughts, in the hopes that you, whoever you may be, will take them and further refine, redefine them, restructure them, and so on and so forth, hence keeping the process alive.

Since we are on the subject of love, a quote:

“Your Task Is Not Merely To Seek Love,

But Merely To Seek And Find All The Barriers Within Yourself That

You Have Built Against It”

Jalal ad-Din Muhammad Rumi,

13th century Persian poet, jurist, theologian and Sufi Mystic.”

Its Eid, So Be Grateful..PLEEASSE?

2010-11-18T01:14:00.001+05:00

165thEntry:

“The sight has been seen over and over again, and i have grow immune to it, even though a small part of me will feel some mercy for the animal, i must remember the cause of it. Yes, today was Eid-Ul-Azah, or hari raya selamat aidiladha in Malay :) (forget it Pinky, i’ll never get it right –_-), when we Muslim’s sacrifice animals (goats, sheep, cows (male or adolescent females), and even camels (its a show off thing) ), but before you shout cries of animal rights and brutality and everything that crazy old ‘Christian’ lady told you, allow me to tell you all the reason for this:

God asked the Prophet Abraham (or Ibrahim) “What is most precious to you?”, to which Abraham replied, “My son”, to this God said something along the lines of, If you believe in me, submit your will to me truly and faithfully, then sacrifice what is most precious to you. And so, without any hesitation, Abraham agreed. The night before the sacrifice, Abraham had a dream, that right as he was about to cut his sons throat, a sheep appeared in its place, and that very miracle took place the next day. And thats why we celebrate Eid Ul Azah.

But, honestly speaking, this eid has seldom been a celebration, yes the kids have a mini farm experience better than Farmville on facebook, and it is a religious duty, but we all have a trepidation towards it, simply because it costs so much money. And yet, in these trying times, you’ll see the rich parading around their bulls, all decorated, with pride, turning it into a real celebration. What makes this happen in them? Their vanity, shallow nature and narrow mindedness, or is it the fact that this is something to be celebrated beyond the point of its origins? In Islam, the main concept is submit your will to God, obey God, and you will be justly rewarded and blessed; it is also clearly written that God despises pride of any sort, you are to be humble and grateful. So, when one thinks about it, in these times, if you are able afford a goat, even one the size of a sewing machine (thats a breed, not a kid), feed it, and pay a butcher to…butcher it, then remember that theres more to this than Abrahams story; you are blessed, God has given you enough to afford a goat! Remember the rules of sacrifice? 3 portions, one for family, 2nd for friends/neighbours etc, and 3rd for the less fortunate, those who cant even think of buying what the goat eats rather than the goat itself.

Before you go complaining about how horrible times are, look about yourself, do you have a roof over your head? Clothes on your back? Food in your stomachs? People who love you, and you equally love them? You have been blessed, and blessings are to be counted and to be grateful for, something we’ve got to learn”

The Domino Effect

2010-11-13T16:12:00.001+05:00

164thEntry:

“ The perception we have of ourselves is based on the assumption’s we make of what others think of us.

We give more value to they think, for its simply in our subconscious.

Similarly, we pay more attention to what others are wearing, sharing, driving, eating, and being, and try to either out do them, or avoid reaching that level.

Also, we find the opinion of the masses stronger in influence than the opinion of 3 of our dearest loved ones.

You might’ve also noticed that we tend to take inspiration more from others, whether that be their work, habits or actions, or style or personality, than from any other living creature, animal or mother nature.

We create to share, whether for opinion, appreciation, or revolution of any sort in any manner or way.

We believe in certain matters that have been told by others, and pass that belief down.

We do not raise our voice for a cause, until exposed to the reality of another, nor do we find a cure for any disease until the situation provokes us.

We do not hate, nor do we love, until another being has provoked us to be so.

Why can’t we be united with one another, as we are united in some way with the examples above? If we can give each other this sort of severe importance without even knowing it, then why does it hurt others to do so whilst aware of it?”

Let Them Love! We Need The Love!

2010-11-03T20:43:00.001+05:00

163rdEntry:

…IT JUST AIN’T THE SAME, ALL WAYS HAVE CHANGED, NEW WAYS ARE STRANGE, IS THE WORLD INSANE?/ IF LOVE AND PEACE ARE SO STRONG, WHY ARE THERE PIECES OF LOVE THAT DON’T BELONG….

--Where Is The Love by the Black Eyed Peas

“Faggots, Gay ass, Sinners, Screwed Up” , some of the comments a homosexual will face. They are wrong, they are screwed up, they are the devil in disguise, they are homophobes.

You’ve heard my arguments before about Homosexuality, but lets just refresh them so i’ll have a longer post:

The first argument is always that homosexuality is just downright wrong; is that because your perverted minds can’t imagine how they ‘do it’?

Then the second argument is the almighty religion argument, about how its not allowed in all the major faiths; well, pornography, infidelity, torture, inhumanity, & intoxication aren’t allowed either, i don’t see anybody raising any issues about that.

Then the third argument is again concerning religion, because all the faiths say (apparently) MAKE BABIES MY BABIES! I’m sorry, but i think even God will agree you people are making too many babies without giving a single thought to their livelihood & human value.

2 things: 1) In all faiths, it is clearly written that love must always be in your heart, & 2) You have no right to kill, hurt, insult or prosecute any living being under your own laws, thats God’s job (it is in the Books you know). The Right To Love is a God Given right; you have no power to forbid another beings emotional need for love, not even God will allow that under any circumstances.

Homosexuality is a sexual orientation, its about sex, & how much someone is getting laid or not, is none of your perverted mind’s business. It isn’t our orientation that defines us, its just one of the little details of our life, & remember, its when the all the little details come together in harmony that you have the big picture.

Look Closely

2010-11-03T20:42:00.001+05:00

162ndEntry:

“Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured”

--Mark Twain.

Ahmedis, for those of you who don’t know, are like Muslims, meaning they pray 5 times a day, fast & do charity, but are technically non-Muslims, for they commit a Shirk (in Islam, a shirk is a fault/sin, that if committed, means you’ve broken the utmost basic belief(s) in Islam, & hence, are not a Muslim), for they say that their spiritual leader is a Prophet. Now, as much as i’d like to tick everyone off & continue to call them Muslims, even i can’t do that, for the 1st most basic belief of Islam is that there no God but Allah, & Muhammad was His (final) messenger. Ahmedis, as far as my knowledge goes, exist pre-dominantly in South-Asia; it was because of them that Pakistan became the first country to add Religion to its passport (Muslim or Non-Muslim, since we’re SUPPOSED to be an Islamic country.

The reason for my mentioning this is as follows:

I read a news item in the paper today, about how a group of people protested the burial of an Ahemdi in a Muslim graveyard; the protest went to such an extent, that the body, buried on Sunday, had to be exhumed & reburied yesterday. Need i say more to express my shame?

People in my country hold great resent for Ahmedi’s, saying they’re agents of our enemies (whomever those enemies maybe), and wrong call themselves Muslims, hence they must be killed & prosecuted—I’m sorry… they WRONGLY call themselves Muslims?

Now people may argue that Jihad, ( protecting your religion when it faces external threat) is a part of Islam, but are Ahmedi’s/Indians/Non-Muslims/America/Jews really the one’s threatening the religion? As far my eye goes, its the Muslims themselves that threaten their own faith; Islam clearly says you will stand united, there are now more than 20 (yes twenty) different sects of Islam in my country; Islam says women will be given equality, do i really need to elaborate on how well we’ve followed on that?; Islam says we will be a humane community, again? Does that really require my elaboration?

When you think Terrorist ( thank you Bush) you think Muslim, then you think of that crazy Afghan guy in the middle of some desert you saw in one of those conspiracy theory documentaries; i too, think the same. When you think Muslim, you again think of that crazy Afghan guy; i, on the other hand, think of the people around me, of myself, & what we represent not just to the rest of the world, but to our children. It is my thorough belief that you should never share the mean, racist, crazy side of you with your children, but rather lie & brainwash them into peaceful beings, for whatever you do in front of your kids, even if its not directed at them, they absorb it, and soon they become it; is that what we want our children to become? Mindless fools insulting more than themselves? Is that what we want them to see in us?

Your family, your faith, your ethnicity, your orientation and gender are the little details of your life, and it is those very little details that help that painting, that book, that person to become a masterpiece, or a failure. They should matter to no one but us, & it should be us who want to be good enough to practice those little details until they are perfect, until we are at peace, until we ‘love so much that it hurts’. Remember, its the little details that come together to make the whole picture.”

Random Musing

2010-10-30T17:46:00.001+05:00

161stEntry:

“ Sometimes i look at my dog, right into his sad brown eyes, & i feel something i can’t explain; this feeling removes him as the closest i’ll get to living to living an American, it removes him as my pet, it removes him as an animal that guards our house; this feeling just makes me think, it makes me think what kind of a connection i have to him, & how he thinks of me. We’ve had Scooby since he was a puppy, 12 years on, he’s old, he doesn’t run around that much, & whenever he sleeps (which is always) he looks like he’s dead, & in the back of our heads, we’re expecting him to pass on to the other side soon (like in the next 5 years).

I just look at his eyes, with the sad brow, & the tightly sealed mouth that knows any barking at little miss sunshine will result in him being scolded. When i was a child, i picked up him food, thinking he’d come to me & start eating it like in the cartoons ( how was i supposed to know those are ‘trained’ animated dogs); he pounced on me, & got a beating for it (i’m an only, my parents are very…serious about me..?). & even today, whenever he peeps at me through the bottom of the gate, i see that sadness; as i approach him, he’ll turn away, he won’t ‘say’ anything, & everytime he does that, it makes me think, does he remember that? Or does he sense my fear, my hesitation.

I remember, awhile after he pounced me, i opened the door, & there he was in front of me; he was starting to get excited, when i just started crying…i don’t know why, i just started crying, saying ‘Why don’t you like me Scooby?!’ (yes i fell on my head as a child) ‘Please don’t be mean!’, & you know what? He lowered his head, & backed away, & i came out & petted him i think. You think he remembers that? I don’t know.

I adore animals & babies, & everytime i try to get close to either, they always hate me. My father told me that babies & animals follow their instincts about a person, that they can see into their souls in a way, & tell whether that persons intentions are good or not…i wonder if thats the case, that they can tell i’m a bad person deep down inside even when i can’t, or maybe they see i struggle with myself.

I always struggle with what i’ve done, my sins, my past, with the pain that i’m responsible for, i’m ashamed of my actions, & its a weight that i can literally feel hanging from my heart, & something i hope God will forgive, thats why i believe in God, because its clearly written that ‘He is All-Forgiving’…but even i know God won’t forgive some things. I try not to think about God too much; i just remember that i’m never alone, because God’s always there to listen to me. Thats my own personal belief anyway…”

Going Solo

2010-10-24T22:09:00.001+05:00

160thEntry:

“A few days ago (would’ve been last night if my lappie didn’t get reloaded & i didn’t lose my draft) i watched the film The Soloist, starring Robert Downey Jr. & Jamie Foxx. The film is based on a true story, (& book), about a columnist, Steve Lopez of the Los Angeles Times, who comes across a homeless Schizophrenic man, Nathaniel Anthony Ayers Jr., who’s a gifted violinist/celloist/soloist, & how by writing a series of articles, not only does he evoke a public outpouring of sympathy for Nathaniel, but they earn a bit of fame as well.

I’m afraid i can’t explain the whole film, its the sort of story that you watch, not tell, because its just so hard to explain it; 1) It’s a true story, & hence a good depiction of a Schizophrenic, 2) The film isn’t like a normal film, where theres a simple storyline; you have flashbacks to Nathaniel’s childhood, what Steve goes through himself as he discovers more about mental illnesses, homelessness, & Nathaniel himself. But its definitely a favourite film for me because of Jamie Foxx’s fine performance as Nathaniel, & what i learned from the film, some very valuable lessons indeed.

People have to got to get this idea out of their heads about pills, that pills are the solution to everything; yes, it is important for one to accept one has a problem, & seek help for that, but why are pills the only way?
I believe in the principle of ’Treat Others As You Would Want To Be Treated’, & hence, following this principle in the case of mental illnesses, & placing yourself in the shoes of members of this category, just imagine it:

You can’t understand something about yourself, & when you try to explain it to others, all they tell you is that you need medication, & next thing you know people are forcing pills down your throat, telling you you don’t know whats right, that your life may or may not matter….would you want to be treated like that? What kind of a life is that, its no life, a life no one deserves to live, & yet we let others live it.

One of the concepts of life is to think beyond the norm, to approach a problem from a different view; if doctors hadn’t thought beyond the norm about HIV/AIDS & Cancer, then more & more people would’ve been left to die; if the forefathers of our countries hadn’t realised what they did, alot of countries wouldn’t have existed for us to proudly have been born in; if we don’t think beyond the norm about someone else’s mind & thought process, then we’ll never advance, irrespective of what Apple creates next. Its all about pushing boundaries for everyones sake.

At the end of the it all, human relationships are very important, because they’re what make us human; they hurt us, heal us, & help us grow; you don’t need to be a saint that goes around curing everyone, you simply need to be a Humane Human Being. Just being considerate for or of someone makes a great difference, not just for them, but for you as well, because the fat of the matter is, no matter how much money, luxury & fame you surround yourself with, a part of you will always remain insatiable, not because theres always something to be bought, but because that part can only be satisfied when it has what it needs, human relation, whether its your estranged family, or a new friend waiting to be made out there, a little bit of love always goes a LONG way.”

Love, love, love…bleh!

2010-10-19T13:00:00.001+05:00

159thEntry: (I was trying to write something else, but ended up with this, enjoy!)

“Love comes in many forms, & it affects us in many ways, not all of which are joyous. Love is…a bit indescribable right now, hmm…let me think about it; love is when you pay a little bit more attention to someone, when you care for someone in more ways than, when another being has amazed or impressed so much that they’ve earned a place in your everyday mentality. Love is different for everyone, but the basic formula is very much same for all, irrespective of taste: impression x discovery x amazement= love.

1) IMPRESSION:
We are all attracted to people physically, whether that be for their good looks or for their sense of style or what ever, we are attracted to people through first impression’s, when we see someone from afar, in their perfectly gentlemanly or absolutely nonsensical clothes and/or any other manner of presentation in society.

2) DISCOVERY:
Is when one gets to know the intellect (& believe it or not, everyone has intellect, even if its just gossip), & hence personality of a person. They have a charm, a cuteness, a superiority that blows us away, or simply gains our fancy.

3) AMAZEMENT:
And it is that superiority, or lack of it, that impresses you, & when someone impresses you in more ways than one, more than just physically but mentally as well, then they gain a certain fraction of your respect, or liking, or both if their lucky. & in time you find your personality adjusted to theirs, learning more & more about them, you find yourself overwhelmed in a joyous & calming manner, the end result being, LOVE…i think ;b

Now, onto to the point (!!) Love comes in many forms, in the form of a lover, or a friend, or of course, the biggest institution of love, a family, & it affects us in many ways; it will lift us up high into the clouds, & suddenly let go & leave us falling to the ground; and as we’ll be getting up, recovering, & trying to get back there, we’ll find many struggles ahead, not necessarily with others, but more with ourselves; we forget that love is an emotion, & yes even though its the most powerful force on the face of this Godforsaken planet, it remain’s a tiny emotion to some extent, for it is simply an emotion between 2 people that brings them together, its not Love’s job to keep them together, it’s their own mind’s job to adjust one to the others needs, to evoke such compassion & consideration for the other that they have more than just love as a driving force for eachother.

So, here i am, emotionally struggling with my paternal uncle, someone i’ve seen after 10 years. As a child i loved him, & ignored any truths said about him, but as i grew, i found those truths to be more than real, & found myself in rue. Have you ever had trouble loving someone? I mean family, its like everythings fine, but sometimes it isn’t, because you just find yourself not expecting anything from that person, pitying them, angry at them, & just overall confused as to how to feel about them…have you ever had that?”

Hey, Wait A Minute! (O_o)

2010-10-07T21:04:00.001+05:00

158thEntry:

“I remember i caught a scene of Angels & Demons (The Da Vinci Code sequel), where in St. Peters Square in Vatican City 2 groups were protesting. One group was the group for stem-cell research, the other against stem-cell research. In the scene they showed 2 members, one from each group, arguing:

For-Stem-Cell Research Activist :

“You’re condemning people to die!”

Against-Stem-Cell Research Activist:

“Man Is Not God!”

The old lady is right, man is NOT God. Man does not have the right to take lives, to discriminate against his brethren & determine who is superior in looks or mentality; only God has these rights. His only right, given to him by the Almighty, is to help his fellow creature, human or animal or even plant (their living things after all), as MUCH as he can; he must not be disheartened by a problem, but rather accept it as a challenge from God, & prove himself worthy the chance of life by solving that problem peacefully.

So, any of you like that old lady, before you go arguing about how man is not God, or how its not allowed in faith, first learn to properly practice the basic message of your faith, & to distinguish a bigger issue from another; i never see these anti stem cell people protesting against war, hunger, unjust killings of other people (because of their creed, race or orientation), all i see you doing is protesting against something that could save millions of lives, something that could remind those who’ve forgotten Him, that there is a God, & that one should always have Hope & Faith.”

FINIS

We Can Do It!

2010-09-30T15:42:00.001+05:00

157thEntry.

“One of my favourite songs is Lose Yourself by Eminem; for one thing, its his cleanest song, (only 2 swear words), & for another thing, its just a great song, really helps me to focus. I especially love it when in the very end he says “You Can Do Anything You Set Your Mind To”, for it is the truth.

The human mind is capable of a great things, & to under estimate it is always a mistake, as history has eventfully shown. Whether it is the mind of the man who invented the gun, the atom bomb, or the tank, or the mind of an extremely talented Autistic child, a broken person or just someone like you, the person reading this, we are all capable of something & anything, simply because, my mother told me so….

When i was a child, my mother use to sing me lullabies that told me i could do anything; & when i use to ask her whether i could be a fairy princess or do magic, she would go ‘Of course you can!’. This memory not only helps to convey what i mean, but it shows the capability of a mother; motherhood is an example of being able to do anything you set your mind to; you go upon instinct, with a little bit of information & help, to develop another being, to prepare them for the life that lies ahead; you go against the odds to teach your child what you may not know yourself; you go from being a mouse who was afraid of everything to Wolverine from X-Men if someone threatens your child. This is what we’re capable of.

Sometimes i wonder why God gave us free will; all we do is destroy & kill. But then i realise we were given free will to decide for ourselves which path is right, the one directed as right, or another path; we were given the opportunity to create our own path, paved with lessons we’ve learnt from one another, memories of resilience & what we decide is right on the basis of humane thinking.

You CAN Do Anything YOU Set YOUR MIND TO

& don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. If people are capable of thinking so hard to come up with weapons that kill more, then we are capable of coming up with opinions that convince others to put those very weapons down. One cannot exist without the other, whether that be good & bad, light & dark, pasta & sauce (what? you need good sauce to make the pasta work, or else it doesn’t taste like food!); so people who create weapons, promote hatred & hate so much themselves cannot exist without us lot, the hippie lot that promotes love not just because we love to love, but because we have the brains & soul to cherish love & understand its value.”

Here We Go

2010-09-21T13:18:00.001+05:00

156thEntry.

“I sometimes get cramps in my feet in the middle of night. One night i got up & straightened it out, had a little water, & went back to bed. But then, i felt hot, very hot, & got a pain in my lower back from the mattress, & a pain in my neck from the pillow. So, from 1 am to 6am, i kept tossing & turning, half asleep, dreaming of doctors. Then finally i got up & went to my own room, cold water & tissue paper in hand.

Fast forward to evening, & my dad decides to check my temperature, to find me at 104* (thats 40*). Fast forward again to now, & i’m somewhat better, able to use the net & lappie after a while.

So yes, i’ve been sick, so unable to think, & hence unable to write for my blog. I don’t have much on my mind, except for how hot it is these days, & how cute that news item i just read about Brangelinas daughter Shiloh thinking shes one of the boys was, & then theres some ones birthday today, which is also why i’m here…. have you ever thought of someone so much, but know that very person doesn’t think a single damn bit about you? I don’t know…crushes –_-

Heres to better tomorrows, yesterdays that were learnt from, & todays that will be cherished!

It’s Complicated..I Think

2010-09-11T15:22:00.001+05:00

151stEntry.

“Wow, i haven’t posted in awhile. My brain hasn’t been working very well either; math is clearly not my thing <_<

I don’t know what to say today. Today marks the end of our month of fasting, Ramzan; today is Eid, or Eid-Ul-Fitr. I’ve through many; i remember being a child, my mother would dress me up & she’d take me here & there; we’d play, & it wasn’t getting the most money. Did you know for the longest time i thought Eid was a way of being thankful you had children? Well, you know, they give kids cash, so i thought it was something like that, later i found out they gave you cash as a reward for fasting, even though i didn’t start fasting till i was like 14 i think. Sigh… I remember we (me & some kids) use to go around collecting Eidi, spending it on chips & stuff, & that was it, that was enough—that was fun. Now, apparently, thats how children of the working class are supposed to spend Eid, whilst i’m stuck wishing people on Facebook, all alone sitting at home. I can’t help but think ‘What the hell?!’…my faith doesn’t teach me to be some snobby fool, some depressed lost soul, or some easy push over; my faith teaches me to be good, to be good to everyone & everything, & to stick to being good & not be afraid to stand up for what i believe.

My parents have screwed up along the way, but they’ve tried really hard & done alot for me, put up with a lot, & honestly, a child can only ask for that, for dedication from ones parents, & to have that, all that care, love & consideration, is blessing i’m truly grateful for. I’m sure some of you have that too, be happy, cut them some slack, but keep them on their toes as well, talk to them. Keep God on His toes as well; thats a big blessing too you know, being able to talk to God, to tell this invincible force your problems & gratitude, because you have the guarantee all that you tell will be between you & Him….

Today is not a sober Eid, & i’m not happy about it. I’ve told him, i’ve asked him, i’ve begged him to stop, he won’t listen, i don’t know. Sigh…

But just because i have to put up with an awkward Eid, is no reason to ruin yours; whoever you may be, Muslim, Christian, Jew, Hindu, Buddist & Freethinkers & Atheists alike, i wish you a happy Eid; i wish you health & wealth, & the good sense to use both; i wish you blessings,love & happiness, & the ability to return all three; i wish you freedom from all difficult situations, & most of all, i wish you to always do what is right, and to always be rewarded for doing so in some way or other.”

“ ..To Choose Life Is To Choose To Forgive..” <<Get It Together by India.Arie

From My Diary: Part 2

2010-08-30T20:33:00.001+05:00

151st Entry:

“The trait i most deplore in myself is forgetfulness, from forgetting chores to favours to names to birthday, & of course, to people. 20 million people is a big number & a lot of people; the survivors are everywhere, all around me, but i can’t do a thing, i won’t do a thing. I’ll be on my laptop, or in my dream-world, & i’ll forget about the people without shelter, clothes, bed’s, & of course, food. Why is the human mind, my mind, reluctant to acknowledge & recall the people in need? Why is the world so small to me (?) when in fact it is bigger than anything i could possibly imagine. I’ll go to bed, & go on with MY life, & not recall those children starving & homeless until theres a headline on the news about how many children have died so far from water borne diseases.—Whats the point of wealth, social status, luxury & what not if i can’t use it to help another? It just doesn’t make sense to me; everybody want’s to be a legend, be remembered, how is that possible by showing off? People don’t care about your wealth, its not relevant to them, you’re not doing anything for them. Its when you make them relevant to you that you become a legend, that the possibility of your name echoing through the generations increases. –Mark Twain said:

“ALWAYS DO RIGHT,

THIS WILL GRATIFY SOME,

& ASTONISH THE REST”

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…you’ve always wanted to astonish, & you know how…now what are you waiting for?

From My Diary: Part 1

2010-08-30T20:21:00.001+05:00

150th Entry:

“Alot of things in life are bitter-sweet; they tend to shock, sadden & break ones heart, but thats what makes Life the biggest opportunity in the world, thats what assures you that your life is your life, & you are capable of a whole new kind of evolution.

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Alot of the bitter-sweet in life is what helps us to evolve, to grow, & to dig deep within ourselves to find & feel emotions we barely knew existed. To feel, or not to feel, that is the question (Shakespeare must be turning over in his grave); human beings can spend their lives living on material & visual indulgence, leaving out heart felt sensations, humane beings can spend their lives without visual or material indulgence, living off of the heartfelt sensations that help them to thrive.

I know i’m repetitive, & i’m sorry about that, but i just feel such a need to tell people that what they think is right, wrong, alright & what not isn’t the only way to look at things…what can i say, i’m precocious & stubborn & self centered, telling others what to do & think & hear some compliments is what i live off ^^;

Check Out My New Blog?

2010-08-30T17:40:00.001+05:00

149th Entry:

“Just click on the picture & you’ll be there :)

FEEDBACK ALWAYS VERY VERY WELCOME!!!!

Thank you! :)

O! & i know how much ADAM loves Monkey Emoticons, so here are a few i collected buddy! ;b

I’m sure your fave is going to be the middle one xD

Anyhoo, take care all!! *PANDA HUGS!!!*

<<Haha, a friend posted this on my Facebook, & now i’m spreding it everywhere!! MUHAHAHAHAHA!!! *smacks self* Ahem…right, so EVERYBODY PANDA HUG!!!!! Spread the love & keep the peace! :D <3

All We Need Is Love

2010-08-28T16:59:00.001+05:00

148th Entry:

“In Life, I’ve Found, Theres Always Enough Time To Hate,But Never Enough Time To Love”

I realised this a few days ago, & honestly, i believe it as the God given truth, cause i’ve had plenty of time doing the former, but never enough time doing the latter.

Hate is involuntary, love is not. Just think about the last time you really disliked a person, i mean really disliked so much, you hated them. How did you feel? As if you could do an abundance of misdoings to them & their loved ones, as if there was so much pain to put them through. Now think about love; when was the last time you loved someone, anyone, family, friends, lovers & all, did you find that maybe you haven’t told them how much you love them enough, or that you forgot to show it at times.

Life is a very tricky situation, one that requires balance between all things, but you need not a balance for love, for, as you can see, people who are loving, who just love unconditionally not expecting any back, are a rare species, & its better to be part of that species that any other. All the world needs is love, everyone from starving children to tortured beings to hunted animals; all we need is love, for it is, after all, our most basic & common emotion, that we find, (well i do atleast), the easiest to express, & the finest to share.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, i’m gonna go give my mama a hug….”

WFP UNICEF

Forget About It! ;)

2010-08-28T16:09:00.001+05:00

147thEntry:

“My cousin, whose birthday it is today, visited a long time ago. He enjoys talking to my father very much, & started talking about how he wants a cell phone like all his friends (yes people, some of us don’t have that little nuisance in our lives), to which my father replied “Why? You don’t have a need for it, then why buy it? Things like these, these little bits of technologies, only purpose is to make you feel inferior, as if you’re not good enough if you don’t have the things they have”. Is my dad wise or what? *smiles like proud baby Panda* :D

The fact of the matter is, material, at the end of the day, is material, & if you lose it, it shouldn’t become a loss at all, you should be able to move on & not care. I know some of you are not exactly of this opinion, & i can understand it; i ,for one, am extremely possessive about my things, & am very very fond of little tid-bits simply for the fact they hold so much emotional value, so don’t think my previous statement is just some hypocritical observation like my other posts, i really am putting myself in that place, in that state of mind, when i say this.

We had a fire at our house 4 years ago: 2 washing machines, in the bathroom next to my room, went ablaze in the middle of the night, the result being a house with black walls, & this 11 year old (at the time), left emotionally distraught at the loss of a good many belongings, from old school bags to my fake jewellery (including a watch from my cousin on my birthday) to what not. There were times i would think about it, & really feel bad about it, because the irony being in all of this, at that time i use to stay up really late watching tv, but that fateful night, my father made me sleep early, & this, he acknowledged, could’ve been prevented if he’d let me stay up.

It is only recently i’ve learnt to forget about it, that i’ve realised material is material, its just stuff manufactured somewhere (read: China) a long time ago, & it should never mean more to you than the people who love you. I use material, little things, as a way of remembering people, of keeping them close, but only now i’ve come to realise that rather than treasuring the things the people i love gave me, i should treasure them first whilst they’re still around.

In life, i’ve found, you always have enough time to hate, but never enough time to love, to be the person you promised yourself to be….

Don’t worry, be happy, don’t worry be happy :) ”

Announcement: I WILL NOT BE BLOGGING MUCH!!!! Read below for reasons & jibber jabber :)

2010-08-26T14:22:00.001+05:00

146th Entry.

“Ok, for some of you who don’t know, i dropped out of school when i was in the 5th grade. Why? None of your bee’s wax. So, yesterday, at the cost of Rs. 10,000 (thats about US$117.64705), a tutor was hired. He’s teaching Maths right now, so basically, i’m going to be really busy hacking my brains.

Math is my WEAKEST subject, & it’ll take a while before i can reach the O level’s… level. So basically, i won’t be able to post much, but i’ll try my best to think up good reading material for you all when i can…i’ll be able to post on the weekends for sure, cause Saturday’s & Sunday’s are going to be off, so i’ll have more time to do homework & use lappie :) Of course, this means i’ll have to put a stop on my reading, so Portrait Of A Lady has been left at a VERY crucial stage, i mean right when the plot was getting juicy –_-

So terribly sorry haven’t been posting much, or tagging your blogs Blogging Pals :(

Take care, & thank you for visiting, means alot, especially your feedback, it really does mean alot. See you later, hopefully with a good post, & a better understanding of maths.…boy has he got his work cut out for him, i better learn quick if we wanna save some money :S

“…Can ANYBODY Find Meeee(!!)…SOMEBODY To Love!!….”

2010-08-21T18:29:00.001+05:00

145thEntry: Somewhat Austen-y Mood; a subject like this required me to be so.

“’Tis our duty to be tolerant, caring, & humane; to be helpful unto ones brethren—that is the meaning of Ramzan, that is the spirit of Ramzan” ; that is what i have been hearing, in essence, all around me, & every time i hear something of the sort, the innocent child inside of me asks ‘But isn’t that how we are supposed to behave all year around?’ . I am not mocking anyone or anything when i ask that; i do, in all earnestness, wish to ask all those promoting the spirit of our holiest month, isn’t that not how our Almighty asked, or rather demanded (Almighty’s don’t ask, they demand—it slipped my mind), for us, the followers, to behave overall; to be humane, understanding, unbiased & caring; to hold within us a great sense of humanity, a great feeling for our fellow beings, whether they be human or animal; they are living after all. The Almighty, i at least know, did not tell us to spend our lives consulting astrologers or spiritual guides; the Almighty told us to spend our lives being good, spend our lives being someone who bothered to listen to the message which is the core of all faiths… Peace, Love & Virtue.

But of course, of course! I forget where i live; in my country, you see, anyone who wishes to spend their life in the most humane & respectful manner, with a proper impression of what both those words mean, is usually called a fool; some may not be as audible, but rest assured many will think & wonder as to why a human being, knowing the circumstances about them, would still insist on a pure life. Basically, everybody argues being good is being naive, i argue being good is making the tougher choice in life, & being tough, from what i know, is fashionable. Anybody can be an idiot who just screams & shouts & destroys, but only somebody can avoid violence, control their temper, swallow their God forsaken pride, accept their mistakes & stick to virtue rather than vice, & last i checked, everybody wanted to be somebody rather than anybody, who is the brother of nobody.

Everybody is free to delineate on how arcane life is, but only somebody is allowed to define the meaning of life from a formerly unfashionable perspective, & make it fashionable.”

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P.S.

Everyone please go to WFP or UNICEF to make a donation or find out about how to help the 20MILLION Pakistani flood survivors, 50% of whom are women & children, prone to the most preventable of diseases.

title is a lyric from Somebody To Love by Queen

Custom’s Stuff

2010-08-19T00:53:00.001+05:00

144th Entry.

“Hi guys, sorry i’m not posting enough, just been lazy & tired, & my brain isn’t working that much. I started a new blog ;) But i’m not giving the link until i’ve improved it; its on Tumblr if you’re wondering. But with the Tumblr blog i really wacked out my brains doing the HTML. So i thought i’d take the opportunity to share with you fellow Customisation Freaks some helpful sites to customise your blog/site!! :D

Five Points Apart>> This is just a great site. The author is on a permanent hiatus, but the stuff he’s left behind is brilliant. He has background, tutorials, fonts, & MUCH MORE. If you use anything by him, YOU MUST CREDIT HIM!! >> http://fivepointapart.blogspot.com”

HTML Basix>>This link will take you to the sites area where you can make mouse over images; you know, when an image something one time, & when you move your mouse over it its something else? Otherwise, this site has ALOT of stuff, from generators of various kinds to tuitorials http://www.htmlbasix.com/mouseoverimages.shtml

One Plus You>> This site gives you a count down timer thats easily customisable >> http://www.oneplusyou.com/bb/countdown This is the sites link to widgest & quizzes etc. >>http://www.oneplusyou.com/q

Thats all for now guys…..enjoy!!!!?! Take care BYE!!”

Open Your Mind

2010-08-11T17:49:00.001+05:00

143rdEntry: I was in an Austen-y mood,& had this thought in mind.

“There is a very simple rule in life, a rule that guarantees as much security as you’ll get as an independent being: Never Trust Anyone. I was told this by my father at a young age; at first i didn’t embrace it as a rule at all, but with time i’ve found my father is never wrong, & hence i had to embrace it. You may think it harsh, to be untrusting of anyone; you may think it a lonely & fruitless life, & it is to a great extent, but to a great extent, its better than witnessing your fruit plucked from your own garden.

Balance dictates success,satisfaction & peace of mind in life; how you balance your work life & your personal life, how you balance your emotions, how you balance your time. Balance, hence, is the key with this. One must not forget that this world is inhabited by others, others who differ to us, not just in personality & opinion, but also in moral & principle, & so if we take measures to be aware & alert of such people, it is not being selfish or insecure, it is not even for ourselves, but at times its the best thing to do in order to protect those we dearly love. I do not think having a sense of alertness against someone, even your best friend, wrong, i think it reasonable, for the world is what it is, & we must try our best to live in it, but i know others are not of my opinion. So, for them, i present an alternative: Being on your guard must be natural to you, for the sake of personal sanity & security, you must make it natural to you. By remembering that we mustn’t get our hopes up, we should approach others differently; approach them with a sense of consideration, not just at who they are, but compassionate consideration as well. Approach them with alertness, but a need to know them, to not decide on whether they are friend or foe until you have known them better—that is why introductions & tea parties exist, that is why the concept of society exists.

If can be alert, for all the reasons i’ve mentioned, if one can manage to be so, but still merciful & forgiving towards another, but still willing to know the other & not be judgemental, i think it a good quality for all. I’m not proposing we be suspicious, suspicion brought no good to anyone, but i’m proposing awareness; you may continue your habit of being a social butterfly or whatever, but simply continue it with a sense of awareness, awareness that will guarantee you security & peace of mind which otherwise can’t be guaranteed if one is not awake to the people the world hosts. That is all :)”

Would You Like To Rethink That?

2010-08-10T16:58:00.001+05:00

142nd Entry:

“I read a news item yesterday about an Islamic center’s construction being opposed strongly in a little town just outside of San Diego by the locals, saying that ‘Muslims want to overthrow the constitution with Shariah’, & by holding banners & whatnot saying such things, & by having dogs come near the center site (dogs are considered unclean by Muslims).

Obviously you expect me, a Muslim, to go haywire about this & start criticising them,right? WRONG. I’m actually going to oppose both sides, simply because of an earlier reported news item published a week or so before this one:

Muslims in a Malaysian town opposed the construction of a Hindu temple by shouting slogans, &, (i say this shamefully),waving around the carcass of a cows head (the cow being the most sacred animal in Hindu religion).

Do you see the resemblance of situation? Honestly, i see a stark resemblance with the use of animals. & so, it is for this very reason i neither support the locals of that little town in the US, nor the locals of that town in Malaysia. I’ve emphasised in a previous post the importance of Muslims to grow up, to stop using their religion as a tool for conflict, to stop misinterpreting it. Our Prophet always gave GREAT importance to minorities, allowing them to worship their faith & maintaining peace between them & His people. As Muslims, we are to not only acknowledge him as our Prophet & the final Prophet, but to also follow his example, or else the entire concept of our belief in Islam pretty much goes down the drain, for he is such a vital part of our faith.

So keeping this in mind, if we fail to follow his example, whats the point of it? Whats the point of our faith?Of believing in it, of defending it, if we don’t even understand the very basics it wants us, as its followers, to instil within ourselves.

The longer we keep forgetting our basic duties of humanity to each other, the more insulted we will be, the more we will humiliate ourselves & our brethren. Heaven & Hell is a far way off, & so is how the Almighty will judge us, what matters is HOW we spend the life we have NOW”

Parenthood?

2010-08-08T23:38:00.001+05:00

141thEntry:

“The impression most of us have of parenthood is that it comes when we’ve grown up, when we’ve learned all we can, & are ready to share all we can with an offspring. Agree? But think it over again, think parenthood over again, with our day & age in mind; the above statement is o so wrong all of a sudden. Today, teenagers are becoming parents, (thats another topic for another time), adults are becoming parents abit too late, or without any thought of legal matrimony ( another issue for another time ).

If you think about it, really think about it, then parenthood is not the end of it all; its not when you’ve stopped learning & start teaching, but you start learning something new, something more valuable. We don’t just exist to teach our children, but to learn from them as well, an example of that being if you think about you & your parents; how many of you are exactly like your parents? Physically, maybe ofcourse, but mentally, we all possess views & opinions that are going to differ extraordinarily from our parents,whether for the best or not. Take Gay Rights for example; young kids like me have learned about ‘ it’ from a young age with a new perspective: an open mind, unlike our parents, who were influenced to think otherwise about it. The impression only parents teach is a false one; children, believe it or not, have the ability to teach their parents a thing or two, if only their parents pay attention.

The ideals of parenting, the rules & regulations, must change, not just for better, but because the times are demanding them to change. Parenting isn’t being strict & unfeeling, its about maintaining a sense of authority & discipline whilst exposing the child to as much love,understanding & information as possible; the younger their exposed to education, of any kind, the sooner their brain starts functioning—the sooner you’ll find yourself learning something from them. For parents to block out what their kids say as immature non sense is non sense itself, & for children to block out what their parents say is the foul example of ignorance is bliss.

Human evolution is not when we create a new invention, but when we aim to improve us ourselves as much as we can, by being as humane & attentive to others, rather than ourselves, as much as possible.”

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HERMAN!!

2010-08-07T14:59:00.001+05:00

140thEntry:

“Today, August 7th, is the day a most dear friend came into being..PINKY! ^_^ & this is my birthday wish to him! :)

Allow me Herman, to say that in the past year or so, as we’ve gotten to know eachother, i’ve become quite attached to you; as odd as it sounds, i really am attached, & really want the best for you. We’ve just been through so much together in MSN, from secrets well shared, to sharing songs, to you teaching me about bio,’NI HAO! Ni hao ma?’ to a little Malay i forgot, & of course MUAHAHAHAHAHA. Our conversations may start with a ‘hello, how are you?’, but they always end up with us talking about either something funny or serious, or both

There are times, Midnite Marauder, when i’m in the middle of something & your message pops up, & i think “O Herman, why now?”, & then there are times Bio Boy, when i’ll online all day without any ‘sight’ of you, & be thinking, “Where the HELL IS HERMAN?!” O_O What can i say, i’m weird xD

So Herman, all of that was to tell you how special you are to me, & to tell you:

HAPPY

BIRTYHDAY

PINKY!

Your a wonderful person Herman, always caring, funny, cheerful & exciting, yes you are, believe it Pinky!

I hope your always surrounded by the most loving & caring people, always have all the blessings, cause you deserve them.

I wish you all the best with everything, & JIA YOU Pinky! You’ll score the highest on every test & exam :)

& now, for your birthday card! I hope you like it!

I’ll have you know master, i coloured in one direction! Hope you can read the hand writing. On the left is what would be your name in Urdu,with my name there too. & ofcourse, a few lyrics from a fav song of yours, CHANGES! & need i explain the pink shirt?!!

You’ll find your birthday song here: http://teenageodyssey.tumblr.com/post/917085880/pinky You better like it, i got up at 8 in the morning after like 5 hours of sleep to record this >_<

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN PINKY! LOVE YOU! TAKE CARE!”

Quick Notice

2010-07-31T16:47:00.001+05:00

139th Entry:

“This is a quick notice to say, or better yet ask, your forgiveness if i’m not posting regularly enough, or not visiting your blogs enough(-__-)

I’ll be absent from today as well, till August 7th (HERMANS BIRTHDAY!) I need to focus on my reading. Tomorrow, i’ll be beginning the first of my 3rd batch of book; the 3rd batch that consists of about 24 (or more) books, & the 1st hence being the longest. It’s Portrait Of A Lady by Henry James. I have heard nothing of this book or the author but the title; i didn’t even know the authors name myself until i picked up the book. So yes, in other words, i have no idea of what to expect, & hence will be very busy indulging in this book for that reason, & that its very long & i want to finish it by, hopefully, mid September.

Thank you all for visiting my blog, take care & God Bless. Please feel free to entertain yourselves with this adorable blog i found on Tumblr (another interesting, & dare i say, cool blogging site) http://happymonsters.tumblr.com :)

O, & P.S.:

THANK YOU YANTING FOR SPAMMING MY TAG BOARD!! I LOVE YOU TOO GREEN-BUDDY!!!! ^_^

There Is A Point

2010-07-26T17:38:00.001+05:00

138thEntry: (previously published on my other blog, http://pakistani-gal.blogspot.com)

“Pakistan is in quite the bad, dismal, saddening & depressing position(s):

Suicide bombings:
Every second day you find a bomb has gone off somewhere in the country, with o so many people dead. The normal places like markets, malls & etc. are now danger zones.
Target killings in Karachi:
All the violence that started when i was a child, & ended there, has started once more. Who are these idiots? I don’t know; ethnic tensions are high, some say; i say its the MQM; some say its a bunch of crooks hired by the police; others say it is the police themselves; whilst some say its a bunch of kids with guns.
Food shortage’s:
It is now officially a joke; writing material for comedians i tell you. Thats how bad the food shortage is/got/gets; from milk to sugar to flour…all basic necessities of a household kitchen. Who to blame? The greedy distributors & sellers who stock up & hold back on all the commodities so the prices hike? I don’t know what to think.
Price hikes & inflation:
My father is a retired man, & his money would’ve lasted much longer, had this price hike & inflation not surfaced their ugly heads & killed us all associated with the middle class.
An ill mannered society:
Everybody here loves to stare; whether that be when you open your home gate, or are in the car, rest assured everyone will stare, especially if you’re a woman. But then again, don’t you stare at other people too; being as nosy as possible with your sense of sight?
A bunch of buffoons running the country; a bunch of savages living in it:
Lets see…greedy rich people? Check. Savage middle, upper, working class? Check. Equals? Violence? Madness? Or simply put, a screwed up country?
Those of the upper class are nothing but a bunch of buffoons themselves; the parents absolute idiots; their kids spoiled, high & carrying more communicable diseases than the dogs on the streets; & their spending habits are pitiful; for heaven’s sake, there is a right & wrong way of displaying your wealth..example? Mercedes= Right Way of Displaying Wealth….Toyota Corolla= Wrong Way of Displaying Wealth. A house that is an architectural wonder= Right way of displaying wealth. A house that looks like a big, expensive cave, or Aladdins park= WRONG way of displaying wealth..and so on & so forth.

With all of this, all of these depressing situations, who in heavens name wouldn’t want to kill themselves, or better yet, become corrupt & greedy themselves? Greed, after all, is the first human element, if i may, quote Bryce Courtenay: “There are 3 basic human elements: Greed, Love & Compassion. Greed is always a mile ahead; Love is always trying to catch up; & poor Compassion is limping along behind, thinking ‘Alright, i’ll just try & finish this race’”.

It seems, that the world no longer, that Pakistan no longer (if ever O_O) holds a place for good, sincere, hard working people; the people who possess what it takes to make something out of life, out of their situations, are no longer welcome in the world, for the greed, the depression & oppression, will always outweigh the good will thats struggling to survive.

Whats the point of pushing, if you’re not getting anywhere? Well, whats the point so much money & luxury, if you’re still unsatisfied? If you’re still uncomfortable in your $10,000 shoes; if you’re Ferrari isn’t fast enough for you; if you’re mansion in Beverly Hills, or DHA, isn’t luxurious enough for you; then what is the point? There will always be someone who’ll earn more money than you, who’ll earn it faster & easier; who’ll get money without having to lift a finger. There will always be someone who’ll have a grander vision than you, with a grander mansion, a better model of Ferrari, & a better tailored Armani. But there will NEVER be someone who can have the guts to work hard, or the heart to be good, or the mind to be sincere; for money is something the more fortunate will keep getting, the less fortunate never any, but Sincerity, Hard Work & Goodness is something you can’t get by pulling a few strings, or buy off a shelf; you work hard to find them within yourself, & once you have them, no one can take them away from you, or have more of them than you.”

Quick Notice

2010-07-23T22:44:00.000+05:00

138thEntry.

“Ladies & gentlemen, this is a quick notice boasting about my most recent accomplishment (in my eyes). The World Food Programme, which follows me on twitter *says like proud little monkey*, highlighted one of my posts on their site, & invited me to become a Blogger Against Hunger, (which i will as soon as they sort out some complications we’re having). & yes, i’m all overjoyed & feel very appreciated & happy, & am very grateful for the opportunity, truly i am.

The notice is don’t be surprised if i start posting about Hunger, & don’t mind; you shouldn’t actually, hunger is a serious issue! VERY serious; 1 BILLION people go to bed HUNGRY!! So if you mind posts highlighting this serious issue, i suggest you slap yourself until you have the guts to feel the emotion of kindness & humanity.

So yes, anyhoo, i’ll be posting as much as i can about it, in lengthy posts so you don’t have to worry about constant hunger posts, along with my usual posts on life lessons. Thank you for reading :)

[edit: Started a blog on Hunger! The Hunger Blogger Odyssey! http://hungerbloggerodyssey.blogspot.com Still working on the posts though]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANTING!!

2010-07-20T15:32:00.001+05:00

137thEntry.

“Ladies & Gentlemen (if any exist:P), today is a day which i’ve been preparing for for quite awhile, today is dearest Yanting’s Birthday!!!

Yanting, a year ago on this day i dedicated to you my first birthday entry, a time when we were pretty much strangers still. But now, a year on as we’ve gotten to know each other better, your birthday is all the more to me now than it was before :D If that makes any sense O_O

For 2 months Yanting, i enjoyed being 16 with you, now you’re 17, & i’ll wait till my next birthday to tell you that we’re both 17 now..for 2 months that is ^^ & boy have i been preparing; 1- i made a .gif image, using my diary, so i’ll always remember today, & pushing my dad to get me a scanner, which he did :D 2- I noticed my .gif image turned out a little…off the mark, shall we say, so, i, inspired by Herman & his card designs, made you a card! My way of thinking is, this is the closest i’ll get to giving you a card, figuring you could save the image, & print it out if you like :D & of course, there’s the o so important birthday song, (click here please)

O..o..but first & foremost:

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

YANTING!! :D

I hope you have the best birthday, & are always surrounded by loving & caring people,

& nice teachers who don’t give you too much homework xD

Because you’re a very loving & caring & hardworking person yourself,

& you deserve all the happiness you get in your life :)

Now for the .gif image; after many failed attempts at trying to publish this post, i decided to remove the .gif image & post it on my tumblr blog. Follow link > http://teenageodyssey.tumblr.com/post/Yanting

& now, time for the card! :D I had to crop-scan it, cause the page i drew it on would’nt fit on my scanner, but i think that was good, cause some stuff got cropped out, stuff that sorta ruined the card. Anyhoo, the theme is : You are a doctor! xD I picked the doctor theme cause you said you wanted to take medical :D (JIA YANTING!!) Anyhoo, enough rambling, heres the card, hope you like it! :D

(Click on the pic to get original size)

So yes, i suppose thats all from me..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN YANTING! Have a great one! :) This is my way of saying Thank You & I Love You for everything, including your birthday entry to me :D”

1 Goal

2010-07-10T20:36:00.001+05:00

136thEntry.

“My mind is abit unable to properly come up with a lesson, & honestly i think this more important to share:

LADIES & GENTLEMEN,

I ask you to do something very simple: Go to http://join1goal.org & sign up.

“1GOAL is a campaign seizing the power of football to ensure that education for all is a lasting impact of the 2010 FIFA World Cup. By bringing together footballers and fans, charities and organisations around the world, together we can call on world leaders to make education a reality for 72 million children by 2015.”

PLEASE GO JOIN.

There are 72 MILLION children out of school people!! Schooling & education are a basic human right, they are a child’s basic need. These 72 million have done nothing to be denied that right, they have every reason to have it. Please help them earn it.

You can also get a widget for your site by clicking here

Join them on Facebook

Follow Them On Twitter

PLEASE spread the word & get more & more people to sign up.

To: Austen. From: Dodgson, With Love.

2010-07-08T23:28:00.001+05:00

135thEntry.

“Alright folks, time to give my long awaited, (yeah rights '~' ), review of Northanger Abbey:

NORTHANGER ABBEY by JANE AUSTEN

THE PLOT:

The story revolves around young Catherine Morland and her exposure to the world, & how she must overcome many difficulties & embarrassments before finding happiness.

Basically, its about how she, a young girl of 17, from a simple working class family, leaves her rural living to visit the bustling city of Bath with her close neighbours the Allens. She is exposed to new places & new people, including Henry Tilney & his family, whom she is immediately smitten by, & The Thropes, who will bring a great many adventures for Catherine.

REVIEW:

In it’s essence, the book is basically a coming of age book, not just for the characters or story, but for the authoress herself. Austen has written 6 novels in her short life, Northanger Abbey being my 6th & final by her; in retrospect, if i compare her style in all of her novels, this book stands out the most for me. It is not the most mature work by per se, but it is the observation, the satire, that is upon an entirely new level. In this book, Catherine is introduced as ‘her Heroine’, & a great many mentions & references have been given by Austen of Ann Radcliffe's work, & in some respects, this is a satire upon that Gothic styled work by Radcliffe, where dear Catherine is a bit too highly influenced by her books. Overall, i enjoyed this very much, & this my 4th favourite out of the 6 Austen novels i’ve read; yes, it is possible for me to not like some of her novels, though i confess i only disliked Emma, whilst Persuasion wasn’t impressive enough to me for some reason…perhaps the extra notes at the end i took the trouble to read ruined the experience for me…never mind.

3/5

THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASS by LEWIS CARROLL

This book i could not finish unfortunately, for it was RUINED!!! :( I had been reading it, & enjoying it might i add, when i found that some pages were wrongly placed/pasted. Ok, i’ve dealt with this before, i’ll simply see where the pages are. So i looked, & to my dismay found that the wrongly placed pages were not only repeated, but the pages in whose place there were placed were left out, taking 2 chapters out of the book!!! I was too disgusted & misguided to continue, so sadly this book, the final of my 2nd batch, was never finished, & a part of me will always feel my 2nd batch was never finished. Sigh, the trails & tribulations of a book worm in the middle of a country uninterested in reading -_-

But i have officially reached a new level of absurdity in my life: I have a crush on a dead man…yes, i have a crush on Lewis Carroll. How can you not?!! His real name was Charles Lutwidge Dodgson; he took his first 2 names, translated them into Latin, reversed their order, & translated them back into English, & that gave him his pen name Lewis Carroll. & come on!! His poems are so clever & cute & cheerful! & he was fairly handsome, considered so as well by the standards of that time too. But there are allegations & a history that i might mention some other time…perhaps i’ll write a post about him when my brains dead, & my blog is approaching that state.

Thank you for reading! Take care!

Wanita

2010-07-02T22:58:00.001+05:00

134thEntry.

“This post has been inspired by A Post by Teenage Bride, i suggest you have look see at the blog, lovely it is :)

Now, for those of you who’ve read some of my post on women’s rights, (go to archives & look for posts titled Beyond Your Woman if you want),you’d know very well i’m anti-marriage. I spent a good 10 years of my life dreaming of the perfect man, Prince Charming, Aladdin, Romeo, whatever, then at 14 i realised that the perfect man is human being, & human beings are very capable of lying, hiding & stabbing you in the back in any way possible, so i gave up on the concept of marriage. I became more anti-marriage when i realised that all you see in the films, from kids films to adults, is this image being pounded into our heads since childhood of women having no purpose in life beyond their ultimate dream, which was falling helplessly in love with a guy, get married & blah blah blah.

Having grown up in my society, where a housewife plays an integral role in the progress of the household, & seeing women become nothing but a bunch of uneducated sissies when it comes to the matter, i hold great respect for the house wives of previous generations; i’m talking about women who dedicated their entire lives to taking care of their family & house, not because it was the only choice then, but because they were real women. A good example of this is my fathers mother; she didn’t just stay at home, she worked as a teacher, but she, like many, loved her family, for it is our family’s that provide us with inspiration,dedication & all the love in the world, so should it not be natural & expected of a woman, the gender which God has assigned to have natural feelings of maternal love which no man could ever have, to be more dedicated to her family?

My personal belief is simple, the belief my father instilled in me, & i believe, cause my dad is never wrong: It is the woman that helps the home to grow, to become a home, not the man. So, even if this anti-marriage me ever became a house wife, i would do it with all my heart; i would feed my man, cook for him, prepare a bath for him after a long days work,love him, give him all that i have, & put him & our marriage before myself, simply because, to know that a man accepts me for who i am, for what i am, & gives me the courage to take on the world, & doesn’t ask me to change anything about myself, but only adds to who i am,is something that is worth more to me than diamonds or pearls.

In this day & age, where women are choosing education over marriage, the concept of marriage itself is diluted; from what i’ve witnessed, you have ‘mod’ couples who have no idea how to run a household or raise family, & oddly enough they also reproduce like a Chinese doll factory. The wives of these couples are picky, & have no idea of anything, they just do what they like, whether that be spend money mindlessly on shopping,(which i confess,though i am female,i detest shopping), or spoil their children because they’re spoiled themselves & aren’t qualified to raise kids,or pursuing their career. There are couples though,that have applied this new age theory of marriage effectively; where they both continue their working lives, but still manage to be able to run a household properly. Marriage,to me,is a business partnership; you bring in the money,i make it work;you take care of certain matters,i take care of certain matters, & hence we build a home, literally. Also,i detest the idea of a relationship based on gifts;like i said, to know a man accepts & loves me for who i am,is the biggest present he could give me, something that is best described in this song.

According to teenage brides blog post, she read in a psychology magazine that women who took on their husbands last name were more dependent,incompetent,less ambitious,less intelligent; well, i am offended! Yes women who don’t take on their husbands & don’t really settle down are more ambitious cause they’re still working for the top prize, but women who do show maturity & understanding; when a woman becomes a wife, she is expected to make sacrifices,be gentle & more understanding, take care of all, she is expected to be a real woman; marriage helps a woman grow, into a better woman,& a better human being overall. Women who give up a career for a family are not to be pitied but admired for their choices, just as women who prefer adopting kids & raising them alone, (read: ME!!), & working as well, are not to be singled out as women who couldn’t wait, or couldn’t find Mr. Right.

I think i’ve ranted on too much, & my mind is abit of a blank, so i’ll leave you with this thought:

Whatever choice you make when it comes to marriage, remember that the biggest present is when the other accepts you for who you are, loves you for who you are. & remember, respect those who do make the opposite choice, whether that be getting married or refusing the concept. Hope you all found something in this post, thank you for reading it, take care!”

P.S. Wanita means woman in Malay..i was talking to my friend,& i liked it,so i changed the title to Wanita :D

When There’s A Will, There’s A Way

2010-07-01T21:38:00.001+05:00

133rdEntry

“I remember last year during Ramzan, our month of fasting, my period’s started, & as i told my father, he saw the utter disappointment on my face, & told me something that provided me great comfort than, & provides me inspiration now:

“The Lord looks at your will to do it, not how much you’ve done of it”

So basically, it’s not really about how much you pray or fast, or do anything even if it is non-religious, what matters is with what will you approach it, with what hope & faith you do it, how dedicated you really are. A good example is my neck of the woods; the most ‘religious’ of people are also the most corrupt & back stabbing, using their faith as a front; or the people who are proud of how much they worship, as if they’re better than others, when in fact they’re really not, especially since my faith forbids pride.

And such an approach isn’t limited to faith, it goes beyond that; if you don’t approach your goals, your passion, with the good & sincere will they require, then you won’t ever feel complete; it is when we are sincerely committed to someone or something that we feel the blow’s deeply, that we feel each little achievement deeply, that we feel we can do it, & eventually we do.

“I Keep On Walking Till The Sun Comes Up,

I Keep On Walking & The Sun Comes Up”

Keep on Walking by Scouting For Girls

In It For The Long Haul

2010-06-29T12:10:00.001+05:00

132ndEntry

“Jose Luis Rodrigueaz, Prime Minister of Spain, in speech given after Spain legalized gay marriage. -TheGayMovement.Tumblr.Com”

Click on it, it’s a link to a new blog i found, the first i’ve ever come across, on Gay Rights.

My best friend online is Gay, & he’s Muslim, & at times he feels so much frustration & fear that his friends won’t accept him anymore if he ever tell’s them about their orientation. That is the biggest fear isn’t it? The fact that those closest to you will become your enemies once they realise who you are & who you like. Homophobes are people who hate homosexuals, even though homosexuals have done nothing to them what-so-ever; homophobes are 2 steps ahead of Hitler, & would’ve done alot of things even Hitler wouldn’t have had it not been for the internet & the crazy media.

Faith, common sense, everything we were taught & raised on, goes down the drain when homosexuality is talked about, & that is what motivates homophobes; faith forbids it, absolutely! Forget about the peace, tolerance & human rights each faith promotes, homosexuality is a no no, even for some atheists. What amazes me most about this is the fact that the previous statement, how people use faith as the biggest excuse, how faith forbids such an act, is so ironic to those very same people that one can’t help but laugh; corruption, prostitution, drugs, child abuse & molestation, women & children dying of starvation, war exist in all societies, & almost all are forbidden in all faiths, & yet people so happily live with them, forget about such issues, such important issues, but go so insane on the matter homosexuality, that i can’t help but laugh & wonder at such behaviour.

Homosexuality is a brave choice, but half the time it’s not a choice.— The very friend i mentioned in the beginning didn’t just decide: “I don’t like girls”, it was something that happened to him as soon as puberty started. He prayed to be straight, to be normal like everyone else, but soon he realised he couldn’t be, he had to accept himself. He imagined the disappointment it would cause his family, his dearest family, but he knew eventually his mother would accept it. For a parent, to know their child is homosexual is quite an obstacle; some are just dead crazy homophobes, whilst some, real caring parents, don’t let their homophobe side take over, but rather their parental; they worry about the trials & tribulations their children will face, the abuse ranging from verbal to physical, the fear of their child being beaten/shot/stabbed to death.

Homosexuality is, & should not be, an issue. It has existed for many centuries, pretty much since the dawn of man. The fear of flirtation from a homosexual, or influence, or simply hate for them, is unjustified yet expected, & so is attraction. To me, sexuality is a very simple matter; attraction is expected, its inevitable,but sexuality, or rather sexual activity, is a practice; my friend is a homosexual, but he has no want to practice it, especially now; i’m a heterosexual, but i have no want or need to practice, simply because all real men are dead in my eyes(-_-); nun’s & priests are a good example, they promise never to practice their orientation, do they not? So you must accept the fact that sexuality is a practice, and a private matter,& whether a person is gay or not should not matter.

I’ve always argued, especially in my 1st gay rights entry, that it is the homophobes themselves who are sick, rather than the homosexuals they accuse of wickedness; is it or is it not true that you, yes you the homophobe reading this, are prejudiced against gays cause you can’t imagine how they do ‘it’? Every time a straight couple comes to you, you won’t dare think of such a thing which is their sole private matter, (& if you do you need to be jailed), but when the issue of gays comes up, you know you think about how they do ‘it’; its only natural to wonder, i’ve wondered at it, i’ve found it odd when i saw a scene from Love Of Siam where 2 boys kissed, & didn’t understand love between them, & yet when i saw one of them cry for the other, it touched me deeply to the core, & love, which holds no boundaries, even if it is ‘their’ love, was somewhat understood by me.

Just because you don’t understand something doesn’t mean you dismiss it; it’s like school, you need to solve the problems or else you can’t graduate, & we need to address this problem, & show others it is NOT a problem, in order to take a step further to improve the quality of life for all.

Though the speech written in the illustration above refers to the hopes that other countries will follow suit & understand the concept, rather than just dismiss it immediately; that people will understand that this was not some promiscuous choice, but natural, that homosexuals, as hard as it is to believe, have beating hearts, pure souls, & brilliant minds, just like us, & hence qualify as human beings; the speech, if you remove one word from it & make a slight grammatical change to another, holds an important message for people like me who want their friends to be happy & secure,for homosexuals, & for homophobes:

“We Are Not The First, & I’m Sure We

Will Not Be The Last.

After Us Will Come Many Others,

Driven By The Two Unstoppable

Forces:

Freedom & Equality.”

(edit:

“Homosexuality is a brave choice, but half the time it’s not a choice. <- don't like this though, it's never a choice”

My friend who was mentioned in this entry told me this, & I AGREE!)

“..IF YOU WANNA MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE, THEN TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF & MAKE A CHANGE..”

2010-06-24T11:00:00.001+05:00

131stEntry.

“Tomorrow on the 25th of June 2010 will be a sad yet important sort of occasion; tomorrow will mark the 1st Death Anniversary of Michael Jackson, yes the King of Pop. I figured everybody’s going to be doing a post on him or what, so i decided to do one as well.

Many of you may ask, ‘What makes him so important?’, well, financially speaking, his album Thriller had such astronomical record sales, that to this day, almost 25 or more years after it’s release, it still stands as the most sold album EVER!

But i’d also like to approach Michael Jackson in the personal manner that everyone will & has; his music is special to us all, from the moment our parents heard the Jackson 5, to the moment we heard Michael Jackson, we all grew up listening to him, & were in one way or another influenced by him; all the hot artists & musician’s of today, & those to come, have been heavily influenced by his unique singing style, his unique & sleek dance moves, his simple yet meaningful lyrics, his amazing music videos, his wardrobe which many still copy, & the fact that to this day he remains, even in death, the best performer the world has ever seen.

One last thing before i leave you to watch this; my entire point to post this was to say this:

Say what you want about Michael Jackson, you didn’t like his vocals or whatever, or the rumours you heard about him, (which i don’t believe),but let me say this in his, & my own, defence: whilst we were judging him, criticising him, he was being overwhelmed by the state of the world then, by the condition of the less fortunate; he had a sense of gentle humanity that we had forgotten so long ago; the fact of the matter is, whilst you were wasting your time, & life, hating him, he was spending his helping those we could’ve easily helped; he spent his life being more humane than you could ever be.”

Where Is The Love?

2010-06-22T16:47:00.003+05:00

130thEntry. (Sorry if it’s a lengthy entry-_-)

“Alright, i just finished watching The Proposal, starring Sandra Bullock &…Ok, never mind, i forgot the guys name +_+ The plot of the film is that Sandra Bullock plays a successful editor at a publishing house, & whats-his-name—let’s call him Andrew for convenience, for it was his characters name—right, so, Andrew is her assistant. Bullocks character, Margaret is Canadian, & about to be deported, & so she forces Andrew to marry her. So it’s Andrew’s parent’s place for the weekend to tell them the news, which is in Sitka Alaska. Apparently Andrews family is well-off & yadda yadda yadda…

The little thing though, what i want to write about, that i picked up from the film, was something i was discussing with my dad whilst we were watching the film; Margaret was orphaned at 16, so when she finds this warm loving family, with traditions & all, she is overwhelmed, & so was i; families are no longer families, & a good example of that is the influence of the Western lifestyle upon the brainless in my neck of the woods; not only has the joint family system become rare & extinct, but the family institution overall, the bond, the emotional institution a family has, has also dissolved.

As my wise father put it: “People simply don’t care anymore…People have forgotten how to love”, which honestly is the case with us all; we’ve all forgotten everything; & it’s not just the Dumb&Deaf Blonde culture of self absorbed teen’s on social networking sites asking each other to check out another's webcam, it’s everyone; families, for example, are no longer families; there was a time your family mattered to you, they were important, the event’s & holidays were important, the bond was important, & people would visit each other every holiday irrespective of the distance between them; the excitement to see each other after such a long time, to finally have that comfort & warmth again surrounding us, was enough for us to bear with the expenses, time & frustration spent getting to them; now, nobody cares if the others voice is clearly evincing the need to see the former on the phone, they just can’t come—money,time, this, that…just shut up will you…

I don’t know what happened, how this began; how did we forget to be human? Which generation neglected the aspects & qualities? & passed them down to their children which brought us down into this situation? Do you see the consequences? The impact one person, one generation, have upon the following, or simply those who surround them? Or the impact of one careless nation & it’s lifestyle has on the rest of the world (read: West meets East moron style)…How did we forget? How did we forget to be just nice? To care, to remember? Because of this neglect, thing’s are just so much more complicated now…they’re so frustrating now—every time i think about it, the hate, anger, wars, deaths, prejudice, it just makes me so angry & depressed, it’s like i’m drowning.

I write on this damned blog all the thing’s i’ve learned, all the qualities i want people to have, either again or for the first time, the attitude’s to change, so we’re not the arrogant & ignorant fools anymore; this attitude of being blind & deaf to the suffering’s of others, whether the emotional suffering’s of a loved one, or the physical suffering of a child somewhere out there, has to end with us, this generation…we can’t keep passing it on & pretend it’s alright; ITS NOT. What’s not right is wrong, nothing else, you can’t say it’s ok, or in the middle; ANYTHING THATS NOT RIGHT IS WRONG, end of story.

Is anyone listening? Or am i just rambling on to my own hopeless self? To the one whose kind enough to have read this all the way down here, thank you; i know that in reality all i’m doing is rambling, just being a hypocrite, telling others to do what i fail to do myself, and it has quite a selfish reason behind it, i want to comfort myself; it’s no longer about dreaming about being a great writer who gathers a small following & get’s famous, thing’s have changed; i just want to know that there are good people out there, people who are not prejudiced against any race,faith,sexual group or etc., i want to know that there are people who’ll save those kid’s who die every 6 seconds…i want to inspire you, so i may be inspired myself, will you please be kind enough to do so?”

Sherlock! It’s Robinson Crusoe!

2010-06-22T16:47:00.001+05:00

129thEntry.

“I know, very lame title, but i’m abit tired now, so be quite.

SHERLOCK HOLMES:

I started Sherlock Holmes, a specially edited version (>_<) on the 15th of June, & finished in about 3 hours; there were 3 stories, & half of the book was in illustration’s; The Copper Beeches, The Red-Haired League, & The Adventures Of The Speckled Band, were the 3 stories, all entertaining enough, & would’ve been more entertaining in their original forms. I have little to say about this than, the fanfare for Sherlock Holmes is all very well deserved, for i was very entertained, even though i’d guessed who did it,(which is usually the case with me even when watching crime shows), to know how they did it was what entertained.

3/5

ROBINSON CRUSOE:

Again, another specially adapted version, (& man do i detest these), it tells the story of young Robinson Crusoe, who a simple & comfortable enough life, but has a yearning to be a sailor, & against his family’s wishes, boards a ship, & lands himself into a storm, & then begin’s a series of adventures before he finally lands himself on a deserted island, where he find’s a sort of salvation. He also finds another island not too far away from his, where cannibals reside; he discovers they sometimes arrive at his to perform their brutish feats. Once whilst witnessing them, one of the prisoners—& main course—makes a run for it, & Robinson rescues this cannibal & names him Friday, who then becomes his loyal & loving servant & companion.

According to the introduction, they mention that one of the reasons they edited the book was because of Daniel Defoe’s seriousness in the book, which they felt abit too strongly & consistently mentioned; this seriousness were,i’m guessing, reminders of morality written with the fancy fine language of that time, which few but seasoned readers of novels of such periods can only comprehend.

I was abit disappointed with the ending, how easily it was all wrapped up, but endings must be so i suppose. But my dissatisfaction with the ending has cost this book half a mark, so rather than 3.5, i give it the following.

3/5

NEXT ADVENTURE:

My next book will be very special to me for many reasons: North Hanger Abbey by Jane Austen will be a bench mark for me, for it will be the 5th & final novel by Ms. Austen i’ll be reading, but that is also what makes it sad, for i will no longer look forward to another Austen, another book of enticing & enchanting entertainment…sigh. But, it will be another benchmark, for after this, only Through The Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll will be left for me to read, & my 2nd batch will be finally finished; allow me to delineate: I have organised my book into batches, the 1st batch being the 1st batch of 5 fully unabridged novels my father bought, this 2nd batch, i believe, consists of 8 or 9 novels, & then finally there is my 3rd batch, the longest; this 3rd batch is special, for these are the novels i bought with my father when he took me The 2nd International Karachi Book Fair way back in December ‘09 i believe; also, this 3rd batch, even if read with as much dedication & speed as possible, will probably last me till i am of 22 years of life. So yes, many special, personal little moments.

Here’s to a better understanding of literature, that’ll hopefully improve my own writing.”

This Baffles Me: ‘FACT: A CHILD DIES EVERY 6 SECONDS!’

2010-06-20T09:21:00.001+05:00

128th Entry.

“Recently i found out a fact that has been baffling & stunning me since it’s discovery.

A Child Dies Every 6 Seconds!!

So if i’m calculating correctly:

Thats 10 Children No More In 1 Minute

600 Children Lifeless In 1 Hour

14400 Children Dead In 24 Hours

& it shakes me to my core each time. How is this humanly possible? How is it that whilst i’m typing this, some child possibly more deserving of this life, losing theirs at the other end of the globe, or just the continent or country?? How can it be possible?!! For Heaven’s sake it’s every 6 seconds!! Where are these children? Whats the cause of it all? How can i help??

6 Seconds…that’s what bothers me..why so soon, why so quickly? How can this be fair? This is more than unfair! Here i am, given the chance of opportunity, surrounded by a crazy yet loving family, with all the facilities to make my life easy, &, might i add, as fat as a pig i am, whilst children, who if given the mean’s & the opportunity, could contribute to the world somehow, whether that be curing diseases, or breaking down barriers & leading us into a more hopeful future, can’t even survive rather than dream of those mean’s.

This just makes me want to beat my head against the wall…many may argue this is life & we have to accept it & move on, i refuse! I’m not going to accept this like everything, & move on & forget about this, forget about my own life; just because something isn’t fair doesn’t mean you just forget about it & move on; your parents are ‘unfair’ to you, but do you forget about it? You dare to defy them so fiercely & happily, & yet, when something worthwhile come’s along, something worth saving, changing & defending, what do you do? You just forget, it doesn’t matter, cause it doesn’t involve you or your life…WRONG! How dare you forget your place; how dare you hear this fact & fail to realise that you’ve been given something very special, that you’ve been given a miracle to have lived so long with so many mean’s & comfort’s & whatnot. & if you’ve realised that, how can you not be moved..moved, you should be overwhelmed & crying right now…

Let’s not accept this, let’s make this the most unfair occurrence in the world, & defy the Dumb&Deaf Blonde culture, & care for once; let’s prove to everyone, but most importantly ourselves, that we deserve this chance of life, that we’ve earned & will continue to earn it; do anything you want, as long as it’s for someone else, someone less fortunate but more humane than you, & it’s done with compassion; go donate, volunteer, or simply ReBlog or Copy/Paste this fact or whatever…at least spread the word & remind people of what they have.

I’d go on longer..but the thought that someone’s dying as i type this overwhelming & frustrating me once more..”

Your Misfortune Should Become Their Fortune

2010-06-19T20:52:00.001+05:00

127th Entry.

“So far, i’ve found there are 3 thing’s we, the living being’s known as Human Beings, can’t avoid: Hard Work, The Truth, & Tragedies. I’ve realised, we must face these thing’s eventually, for without them, life simply can’t be complete—life simply can’t be life.

Though i question my faith many a time, & may seem like almost like an Atheist, a ‘freethinker’, i have been adamant on the fact we must believe in our faith, no matter what it may be, for God forbid , we will, i believe, face a time in our lives when we are unable to turn towards anyone but the mighty force we believe in.

So tragedies, in their many forms, will visit us, & i’ve realised that we should not pray to avoid them, but rather pray that we face those that provoke us to look beyond ourselves, & realise that we can prevent the same from happening to another. Yes, the death of a loved one, a financial or material loss, & etc. is always hard, but i feel, if you help another, if you earn that warm gratitude from another living being, then the difficulty of dealing with that tragedy in question becomes easier, that life itself becomes easier.

Life will always remain empty & incomplete till we’ve become selfless & kind, for it is when we receive gratitude & love from another after a good deed, that we feel those fuzzy feelings, that warmth & easiness, that we have truly had a taste of life, that life is incomplete without happiness, & ‘happiness is real only when shared’—that i got from a film i watched ages ago, & i think it’s very befitting for this.

I wish you all love & blessings, but strength & fuzzy feelings as well.”

The Power Of One

2010-06-13T14:55:00.001+05:00

126thEntry.

“The common perception that only those holding public office have real power is wrong; anyone who’s grown up in a country like mine knows it goes beyond that, that anyone having wealth beyond their mean’s holds great power, & anyone with little or no wealth hold’s only the right to be abused by the rich & powerful. & believe me, those with power will abuse it, one way or another.

When one with power is left alone with that power, & the temptation’s that surround them, then corruption, on all level’s & of any kind, is bound to occur.From the politicians in public office, to the celebrities, to the elite & simply well off, all possess power, for all possess money of excess mean’s, so hence, all are corrupt, for they have no idea how to use their power, so it end’s up being simply abused.

Power, true power, need’s a problem to solve, or else it’ll become a problem itself; when we, whom fortune has favoured financially & socially, are left with excess mean’s, to our own false devices, then something wrong & unnecessary will take place; fashion brand’s, large estates, & other material & unnecessary concept’s have sprouted from people like ourselves, people with too much money, & a mind not broad enough to understand how to optimize that money. –This concept baffles me; that people who are savvy enough to know as to how to make money, fail to be savvy enough to spend it; i don’t defame a luxurious lifestyle simply from what i see, but from what i understand: If you, one who has worked hard to earn that money, simply spends it extravagantly on material that can easily be stolen & lost & destroyed, call this an investment? If i’m going to spend bundles of money on something, i mean serious load’s of money, i want it to be an investment of some sort, an investment that’ll return to me not material, but something better, something that can’t be destroyed, something that can’t be bought but earned.

The only way to tackle the problem of corruption on this level, on the level of having excess mean’s—the only way to truly invest your hard earned money—is to humble ourselves; in this day & age, images of hopelessness & heartbreak reach news channels moments after a disaster has taken place; be moved by those images, from the baby who has no family left, to the mother who lost her child, to simply the most gut wrenching of stories & graphic of situation’s; humble yourself with these people, & realise the world is much bigger than that plastic globe in your classroom, that there are people more worthy of the mean’s you, not they, possess. It is only by using our excess mean’s, by being a better person, a more humane human being, that we will feel something that no one else can unless they do same act’s: the irreplaceable gratitude & warmth of a human being in need.”

..‘Your Sympathy Won’t Do For Me’..

2010-06-13T14:54:00.001+05:00

125thEntry.

“I’ve realised that it’s better to avoid feeling any pity or sympathy for anyone, for it is only going to add insult to injury, literally. In place of both, simply feel compassion; for unlike the formerly mentioned, it can be felt for anyone without much emotional change, or acquaintance of any kind, but compassion can be felt for all, without having to know the past of those in question, but simply their present situation.

Pity & sympathy require a certain amount of knowledge, acquaintance, & understanding, which all develop from personal experiences with that person in question, & hence the level of pity & sympathy are customised to that person & their relation to us. They require, also, a certain something to arouse them, whilst compassion need’s little help to exert itself.

Compassion is much purer emotion; it is everlasting once truly embedded in that mind. Compassion is more effective as well; we become better, more kinder, more caring for all; we become human. Compassion takes no time to arouse & function, unlike the former; it does not die nor resurrect, for it is always alive in our being, in who we are everyday.

‘Your sympathy won’t do for me, so please leave it dutifully/ Forget that we ever persisted, of friendship that ever existed/ For pity i cannot take, but you continue to give it to me which causes my heart to break/

I will be more compassionate, though i know i lack in it/ I will be the one you’ve wanted for so long, i’m terribly sorry for being so headstrong/ I pity you not, all because, i see in you nothing but love’

Must We?

2010-06-10T22:28:00.001+05:00

124th Entry

“The recent Israeli attacks on the flotilla carrying humanitarian aid to Gaza has sparked world wide protests & anger, not just in Muslim countries, but countries all over. For once, Israel can’t just hide or ignore the inhumane act’s they have committed; the world demands everything from them, even if the US doesn’t.

I’ve always been a believer in harmonious relations between all faiths,races,creeds, cultures, etc. Especially when it came to Muslims & Jews; our faiths are so similar, then why not be more cordial towards one another? Alas, such dreams & hopes are always crushed; every time i think it possible for us to forgive & forget & move on, something happens that won’t allow it.

The 2008 December invasion of Gaza, the brutal attack on Gaza by the Israeli army lead me to harbour hate, not against Israel as a whole, but against their government;yes, call me foolish, or even traitor to my Muslim community, but i’m still willing to believe that there are good Jews out there; humane Jew’s who have the same views as me, & i know there are. It brought me some comfort when some of the soldiers of the Israeli army came out, & told that they were ordered to use civilians as human shields. Does that not prove they bear a conscious ruled by concern for what is right & humane? Even after these attacks, i’m still willing to believe that there are Israelis who harbour the same dim hope that i do, the hope of for a better future for ‘us’. Must we always be so divided? Isn’t it bad enough the world is the horrible state that it is? Must we increase the hate around us? Must there always exist an ‘us’ & ‘them’, but never a ‘we’? You may argue that the Jews started it, that they asked for it, & hence we must retaliate, but is this really what we, as Muslims, as supposed to do?Some may say it is Jihad, that we must fight to protect our faith & our community, i argue are you even Muslim?

As Muslims, we are to believe that there is only One God, by the name of ALLAH, & Mohammad (pbuh), is his Messenger. If you, the Muslim reading this, solemnly swear that you believe in this, with all your heart & soul, but still feel that hate for Israel, then i’m sorry, but i cannot call you a fellow Muslim. We are expected to follow what is said in the Quran, & follow the example of the Prophet (pbuh), are we not? How can we say we’re doing that if we harbour this hate? The Prophet (pbuh), if he was still alive today to guide us, would never allow us to have such hate against those who are people of the Book, whom we must respect & be considerate of for that very reason. But more over, the Prophet (pbuh), would never have allowed us to have such hate, for it is against our faith; we are expected to be tolerant & forgiving, not angry & vengeful. If you are a Muslim, then you should know the following incident:

The Prophets uncle, Hazrat Hamza, was a mighty warrior & protected & loved his nephew very much. One day, he was killed, by the slave of Hind, the woman who’s husband & father were killed in battle by Hazrat Hamza. In revenge, not only did she have him killed, she had his body brought to her, & mutilated it by cutting off his nose & ears to make a necklace.— If this was to happen to a human being you knew, irrespective of your relation to them, would you stand it? Of course not. But, following the conquest of Mecca, Hind & her slave were brought forward to the Prophet; do you know what he did? He forgave them, irrespective of what they did to his own uncle, he forgave them; he forgave all his enemies,who had for more than 20 years tortured & ridiculed him,his family & his followers; Hind & her slave embraced Islam; the whole of Mecca embraced Islam, & soon many came from far & wide to do the same.—It was his ability to forgive, to be so humane & kind, that not only made him worthy to be Prophet (pbuh), or to have that (Peace Be Upon Him) follow everytime he is mentioned, but helped Islam to spread, to prove that it is indeed a peaceful & truthful religion, & we, the followers, (or so we claim to be), are expected to follow the same example.

The Prophet, (PBUH), may no longer be alive in reality, but he can be alive, & to some extent is, through the kind & humane act’s of some Muslims; if we unite & follow his example of humility & humanity, then he,or our faith, will never be forgotten, questioned, or die in any way.

It is through us that our families name live, our nation’s name live, & our faith’s purity live; but if we are not pure, not willing to believe in the basic message, then how can we pass on what we so thoroughly believe in? How can we prove to the world that this is not a violent faith? Everytime you raise your right index finger during prayer; every time you go into Sajdah,& say Sub-han-ha-rabi-al-Allah, remember it is not just you worshipping the Almighty, but you & those before you, who so purely believed, worshipping with you.—We represent a rich history, a beautiful history as Muslims, let’s not forget it ourselves, let alone let the world forget it.

Of ‘Pride & Prejudice’..

2010-06-09T17:18:00.001+05:00

123rdEntry.

“I began, on the 4th of June, a novel, ‘Pride & Prejudice’ by Jane Austen, & now, on the 9th of June, i present it’s review to you.

PLOT:

This is possibly Jane Austen’s most famous novel to date, with countless films made on it, amongst other things.

The story is of a family, Bennet, living in modest circumstances. They comprise of a philosophical & indolent father, ( as most philosophical people are indolent), & a somewhat uncivil mother who is intent on getting her 5 daughters married off as quickly as possible. When the arrival of a new young & eligible man into their neighbourhood is known, the quest for him as a future son-in-law begins. Out of the 5 daughters, Jane, Elizabeth, Mary, Kitty & Lydia, the young man, Mr. Bingley, attaches himself to Jane. But it is not his attachment that arouses the story, but rather his connections.

His 2 foul sisters, Mrs. Hurst & Ms Bingley, are unsatisfied with the match, due to the connections of the family, especially Mrs. Bennets relations, & also by Mrs. Bennet’s own mannerisms. So is Mr. Darcy, Mr. Bingleys best friend. Mr Darcy is a proud & ignorant man, the ‘Pride’ in the novel, & Elizabeth, the only woman to have ever stood up to him, the ‘Prejudice’. As Jane & Mr. Bingley’s relationship proceeds & take’s turn’s, so does the entire story.

FINAL REVIEW:

Now before i proceed, do keep in mind something; by the end of April i had finished Paradise Lost, after which i had resolved to read my study books all month long for the following month. Obviously this task was utterly unsuccessful. At the beginning of June it was decided to restart my habit of reading, with the much anticipated novel. So you must excuse me if my review is not on the mark, for it has been quite awhile since i’ve done this.

I must say, though i read this 61 chapter, 299 page book in a hurry, it held all the satisfaction, joy, entertainment & inspiration that only an Austen novel can. The turn’s & twist’s are similar to Mansfield Park, but overall, they are unique & entertaining. Watching the evolution of the protagonists themselves, Elizabeth & Mr Darcy, is entertaining, & at times awe inspiring.

I recommend this book for anyone looking for a good read, or looking to get into reading classical literature. Obviously a dictionary is advised for a companion, for those new to Austen’s work will be introduced to the decorum & language of that time, but i’m sure you will enjoy it.

4/5

“..I’m Just A Little Bit Caught In The Middle, Life Is A Maze & Love Is A Riddle..”

2010-06-09T17:14:00.001+05:00

122nd Entry.

“I started reading a novel after quite awhile, & that too Jane Austen, & her Pride & Prejudice, & damn was i liking it..that is until,i suffered the consequences of these cheap, copyright second hand books, when i found the pages to be wrongly glued, from page 96 to 113,that too, at a very important point of the story :S..so that left me peeved, but something happened that has left me HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!

Last night it was late, probably around 1am, i was trying to fall asleep, when my eye’s caught sight of a sudden flash of light. Afterwards, the sound of clouds roaring was heard, & a little while afterwards, rain was coming down. I saw & i fell asleep, then my parents came to check on me; my father to make sure i hadn’t gotten scared (=.=), & my eccentric mother to wake me up for the rain.

Then i woke up, a little later than usual. I was so tired, horribly sleepy. I brushed my teeth & all, grabbed the untoasted bread with margarine, & the paper, & headed up to the roof. How long did it rain last night? I don’t know, but what i do know is that rain is beautiful, it’s Mother Natures gift to us. All the trees were so green, so fresh; the sky was so bright & cloudy. As soon as i sat myself down, and got comfortable, light showers started, but i didn’t mind, i mean what am i? A cat? These light sprinkles of rain continued throughout the time i was on the roof, then finally, it was time to come down…

I want to go back, back to the wilderness; i want to hide away in a forest, or at least this temporary forest. I want to do everything: draw it, paint it, photograph it, & dive right into it, into that world, so green & fresh. –THE LIGHTS!! they’re back, they were gone since heaven knows when, but they’re back now! …

I wish it would rain everyday; heavy & loud in the morning, to wake me up, light & soft in the evening, to put me to sleep. I wish everyday i could witness such beauty,& such splendour; the entire city quite, the trees so green, the bird’s so free, the sky so pure, the air so clean & cool, this concrete jungle no longer seeming so concrete, but more of a jungle overall.

Of course, the reasons for this wonderful are not so happy: Cyclone Phet, (pronounced Pet, it’s Thai for Diamond), which was born in the Arabian Sea, & hit Oman a few days ago, is making it’s way over to us. Though less intense, it still can’t be underestimated. I would like to say, i’ll believe what my fathers friend told my father in reply when asked about fearing the Cyclone: “Don’t worry, Abdullah Shah Ghazi sahib will stop it”…for all of you who dont know, Abdullah Shah Ghazi was a saint, whose brilliant mausoleum rest’s near the sea side; it is believed that he can stop such disasters from hitting; it is this local little belief, this whimsy, that catches my fancy, for i just find it so charming.—Abdullah Shah Ghazi sahib, we’re counting on you :D”

“..I’m Just A Little Bit Caught In The Middle, Life Is A Maze & Love Is A Riddle..”

2010-06-06T11:45:00.001+05:00

122nd Entry.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYUQRI!!!

2010-06-03T13:14:00.001+05:00

121stEntry.

“Another birthdays here, (so many birthdays happening these days xD ). It’s dear Syuqri’s.

Now Syuqri, i know we don’t know each other that well, but i hope we do get to do so over your June Holidays :D

I think you’re a very cool & smooth person; very unique, very creative, a diamond in the rough if you like :D

And i’d like to wish you…

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

SYUQRI!!!!!

I hope you have a sweeter 17th. I hope you get ton’s of presents ;) & I hope you’re always surrounded by the best people, cause you’re one of those sort of people yourself, the kind who are not just caring & nice & sweet, but with an intelligent & creative mind :)

You’ll find your birthday song on my Tumblr blog. The song was sung on national radio by the wonderful Khalid, & i hope you enjoy it as much as i do :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!! xD

The Prospect Of An Opportunity

2010-06-02T16:22:00.001+05:00

120thEntry.

“It’s official, Evan Almighty is definitely one of my favourite film’s now.

Last night i caught the film half way with my father, & caught a profound thought i’d perhaps missed the last time. Theres a scene, where Evan’s wife, who took the kids after he got himself kicked out of congress & labelled himself a loco, is in a diner. She asks for a refill, & guess who’s serving her? God, (played by the wonderful Morgan Freeman). In between they have a conversation, about Noah & the Ark, & she asks him how do you deal with craziness that her husbands causing for the children & the family, he gives her an answer similar to the following:

“Let me ask you something: If someone prays to be patient, do you think God just gives them patience,or does He give them the opportunity to be patient? Or if someone prays for courage, do you think God gives them courage, or does He give them the opportunity to be courageous? Or, if someone prays for a better family, do you think God just gives them those warm & fuzzy feelings, or does He give them the opportunity to become a family?”

Now if you didn’t find that wise,profound,intensely insightful & overwhelming, then you my friend, need to be smacked on the back of the head.

I’ve always gone on about how we should cherish life, because it could’ve been given to that baby that didn’t make it instead of us, that baby that could’ve done something better if it had gotten the chance instead of us; that whatever happens, happens for the best. So it shouldn’t be surprising for me to say, that the fact of the matter is, life is about opportunities, about seeing those opportunities & pouncing on them, because people who really want,need, deserve something, & are willing to work for it, don’t pray for that very thing to arrive, but just for an opportunity, because for such people, an opportunity is enough, an opportunity is all they need.

Life itself is an opportunity, and, i feel, if you can’t find what your living for, why your living, if you can’t find that reason, that break, then at least try to remember ‘Life itself is an opportunity’, an opportunity you should at least try & prove that you deserve; isn’t that what it’s about? Deserving it? We’ve all been taught we have to earn everything, that nobody’s going to give us anything on a silver platter,so why is it so surprising that even dear God is going to make us work, that God’s going to give us opportunities, because God see’s that something in us, that something we don’t see in other or ourselves, that spark that can turn an opportunity into the chance of a lifetime.”

Quick Thought

2010-06-01T12:39:00.001+05:00

119th Entry.

“People have this habit of questioning you, especially when you do something good: “Why are doing this?”,“What makes you do this?”,etc. It’s just normal & should be expected; for one to work for the betterment of others, & derive joy from that, joy that cannot be felt via financial or social success, is something that is bound to surprise all in this materialistic world; everybody has been taught that only money, financial & social security, can bring you true happiness, but the fact of the matter is, being a good human being just gives you happiness nothing & no one can top, it’s just this God given feeling no one take away from you no matter from you.

So the next time someone why you do something, especially if it’s something good, just say: “Why Not?”..cause honestly speaking, if you’re healthy, up to the challenge, & supported by all aspects, then why not? Most people go why not when people ask them about their rebellious behaviour, well, time to change the image of a rebellious kid from some moronic looking schmuck into a humane human being, because anything good in this world seem’s to be rebellious.

Why Not?

FINIS”

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRYSTAL!!!

2010-05-31T10:39:00.001+05:00

118th Entry.

“Ahh yes, another birthday has come, of someone VERY special. Dearest Chrystal, i was so overjoyed to know we share not only the same star sign,birth year, but tastes as well, though ofcourse we’re different, i just feel like you’re my other twin in the symbol of our star sign :)

So..on this auspicious occasion,i have the following to say:

Chrystal, i’m happy i bothered to click on the ‘Spirited Away’ link, which lead me to your profile on Blogger; i’m proud to say that you are an oddity, an oddity that must be treasured, cause the way you look at thing’s, it’s just so brilliant & touching & artistic. I’ve never ‘met’ anyone as creative as you; going through your blog, your pictures is just like a recreational activity, it’s just so refreshing, so eye opening. I trust you, cause i know you have the sense & sensibility to know good from bad, right from wrong, what’s a good read/movie/song from a bad one.So Chrystal..i humbly wish you a…

.:.:.:.. HAPPY .:.:.:..”.”

..:..:..:.. BIRTHDAY ..:..:..:.

.:.:..:..:.. CHRYSTAL!!!..:..:.

May you have many many more,

May you always be surrounded by the most

loving & caring people,cause you’re someone

who deserves all that love.

May you always be inspired & continue to

inspire others, because you’re just so

AWESOME at that.

I WISH YOU THE SWEETEST 16 EVER!

I HOPE YOUR ALWAYS GOING THROUGH

THAT GARDEN OF FLOWERS LIKE

CHIHIRO, & SWIMMING IN THOSE

ENCHANTING WATERS :)

__________________________________________

Now..i had a surprise for, which i can’t give to you right now..so dear could you wait till..Wednesday or Thursday? Trust me, you’ll like it (i hope)

Chutkus Catching Up

A Tired Little Thought:

I Love It When I’m Wrong:

Personal Entry:

Life Changing…

Album Review: Little Voice by Sara Bareilles

AN OPEN LETTER TO LUCY DOAN:

Album Review: Ladyhawke by Ladyhawke.

Album Review: Kaleidoscope Heart by Sara Bareilles

THANK YOU NORWAY, Really, Thank You:

The Extremist In Us All.

The God Factor

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN TING! ❤

It’s the Theory that Survives, NOT the Theorist.

The Fame

I Keep Repeating Myself, I Know..

Karma

The Difference Between Being Good & Doing Good:

Woman’s Worth

Lacking Insanity

Have A Whale Of A Time

Sexual Education.

Notice

Matrimony

195Entry:

“The institution of marriage is considered a very sacred one, for it is the holy union of 2 people in the eyes of God, and yet the union of 2 people of the same gender is as unholy as it gets. Lets retrace how this holy institution works:

I See Lines; Is That Bad?

Its Never Really For Real

This Is An Issue

Practice What You Preach

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!!

I Belong

The Thillyar’s Are Gone, & So Is Moin Akthar

“If You’re Lucky Enough To Be Different, Don’t Ever Change”

HIATUS

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHI RU!!!

Japan Needs Our Help

Another Epiphany…

ⒽⒺⓁⓅ ⒿⒶⓅⒶⓃ

I Don’t Have Anything Else To Say!

The Karachi Vintage Car Show!

The Make Up Entry

Be Human, It Works

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN FU!!

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

JIN FU!!

Justice Is Served

Its A Thought

BFF’s

Right According To Plan

Notice:

Ya Allah

Life Is… :)

What’s Your Faith To You?

Love…Looove…Love, Love, Love Lovve

Redefinition

Its Eid, So Be Grateful..PLEEASSE?

The Domino Effect

Let Them Love! We Need The Love!

Look Closely

Random Musing

Going Solo

Love, love, love…bleh!

Hey, Wait A Minute! (O_o)

We Can Do It!

Here We Go

It’s Complicated..I Think

From My Diary: Part 2

From My Diary: Part 1

Check Out My New Blog?

All We Need Is Love

Forget About It! ;)

Announcement: I WILL NOT BE BLOGGING MUCH!!!! Read below for reasons & jibber jabber :)

“…Can ANYBODY Find Meeee(!!)…SOMEBODY To Love!!….”

Custom’s Stuff

Open Your Mind

Would You Like To Rethink That?

Parenthood?

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